Aug 20, 2009 17:28
hey guess what! i'm sick. yay. anyways. i'll start 3 days ago.
my fruend lauren took me from the comfort of my home and poured cover-up on my scars and dressed me up. i was an Anna Barbie Doll =-(
and it sucked majorly. but it kinda felt cooln to be girly again. i haven't felt so good about myself for awhile. i really think i might get out ofthis. but i still cut. i hate this about myself. i want to be the girl i was before chris. the girl who was happy and sweet and fun and flirty. i hate myself for this.
the next day my little sister asked me why the Virgin Mary was called the Virgin Mary and i said because she was virgin when she gave birth to whats-his-face. (sigh) and my sister said wow your really not catholic are you? lol i'm such a retard.
and now... im sick. i hate this. i wanna shoot myself! my head is throbbing nd i wanna just make it STFU!