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emily's first show tomorrow. i'm going to try and be happy for her.. me and samantha made the sexiest birthday cake ever. emily will skeet all over. but, no matter what i do.. my mind is somewhere else.
lately i've been very very sad. i'm waiting for someone to come around and make me feel better.
listening to alot of nin. tool can't even make me feel better now...
:( i need a hug.
so, i quit smoking pot. i've been sober since april 20th. (how ironic) i'm thinking a little more clearly, but i'm just starting to realize how lonely i really am. i guess i was using it as a crutch to make myself feel better.. but, now i feel so lost. and i think i'm losing him. and my heart is breaking...
i know my friends are and have always been there through all the shit i have to put up with.. but, i don't think anyone has been in my situation. and, i can't explain it any better than you can understand it. i'm making myself sick with all of this, and i keep looking foward to an easy way out. so somebody love me? please?
lately i've been very very sad. i'm waiting for someone to come around and make me feel better.
listening to alot of nin. tool can't even make me feel better now...
:( i need a hug.
so, i quit smoking pot. i've been sober since april 20th. (how ironic) i'm thinking a little more clearly, but i'm just starting to realize how lonely i really am. i guess i was using it as a crutch to make myself feel better.. but, now i feel so lost. and i think i'm losing him. and my heart is breaking...
i know my friends are and have always been there through all the shit i have to put up with.. but, i don't think anyone has been in my situation. and, i can't explain it any better than you can understand it. i'm making myself sick with all of this, and i keep looking foward to an easy way out. so somebody love me? please?