boring...
i am soooo bored geeez. just sitting here by myself in my room waiting on my grandparents to get back from the beach. i cleaned my room i was so bored. anyways last nite i was supposed to go hang out with "somebody" but i fell asleep. like flat out layed down after i got out of the shower and was out. so i hope hes not mad at me :/ lol. i just didnt feel like doing anything but sleeping. for some reason i woke up at about 1 and called travis. i dont know why i just did. maybe it was a good thing cause he was kinda drunk and for the first time, i actually understood why he broke up with me. he expained it to me in this weird way but i understood. he didnt seem to happy and he said a few things that made me worry about him. he has alot of things he needs to deal with in his life before he can have a healty relationship with anybody, i think travis needs to find himself. i do know that i am incredibly fucked up about the whole amanda thing. i guess he is just used to her. i dont think he ever would have loved me as much as he loves her. so maybe its a good thing we broke up. even tho its a good thing it doesnt make me feel any better. im still fucked up. i still cry every nite. i still cant eat. i still cant sleep. but, ill make it. ill be ok with it one day. yes, one day everything is going to be alright. one day...