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its almost three in the morning and im the only one awake i hate when its like this i hate being the only one awake i always gets so depressed i dont no why i do i really dont have any reason to be i mean everything is going great. well actually there not at all i found out a little while ago that brrittany R got hit by a truck and is in the hospital. and at first i was like wow that sucks and didnt really think much ofit and then eric wolley called me and was like hey eric are you ok i no you and britt have history together so this muct really be affecting you how are you im hear for you if you need me and so on. And it kinda click that people still see me and her as really close even tho its almost the exact opposit we dont talk that often and i dont like it but its my fault that things are like that for so long i have told her all iwant is for her and me to be friends and i always put so much effort into it and the one time i put no effort forward is the time that she tries that hardest so all i am doing is pushing her away witch is not wat i want to do i want to keep her in my as a freind but i am doing nothing to keep her in it i really need to wake up and realize wat is important to me in my life and i am afraid that i am going to wake up one day and it will all be gone and to late to fix everything god i hope that donset happen