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[lifeunscary]

Wow. I was thisclose to doing it. Rummaging around the medicine cabinet got me nowhere. I know I have pills in my room that would take care of it. At this point, I can't see anything that's worth this. I always just sort of held out hope that maybe things would shape up and then I'd have a family to look forward to. But if this is what a relationship entails, I'm never going to have kids and a husband. I'm just not cut out for it. I'm too sensitive and emotional. My mom fuckied me up way too bad. I cause too much pain. The other day mom apologized for not giving me up for adoption. Isn't that great? So she's sorry I'm around too. Good to know. My words can't fix anything. This is taking way too much energy of which I'm quickly running out.
At this point, there's nothing I can do but cross my fingers and pray that I make it till morning.