y do ppl use me?!
Do ppl jst insist on using me?? n lyin 2 me 24/7?? the guy i love. so not the guy i thought he was. im so head over heels in love with him. i cnt let go. bt hes so bad 4 me. he always tells me he aint worth it. he treats me like shit most of the time. i always tell him how much i love him. he jst laffs in my face. says "yeah alrite i no". i try so fukin hard 2 make ppl happy. bt i jst cnt do it. ive figured him out. bt i cnt tell him. hes all ive got. i dnt wanna loose him. yet i no i shud. wot the hell do i do?! i want 2 stay wif him so much bt how can i?? hes usin me. i cnt stop cryin since i read his journal. he dnt no i no the real him. even if he is in a bad mood i try 2 make it betta. i dnt shout at him 4 bin nasty. y cnt ppl love me?! y?! ive had a shit childhood n ive still got it shit now. no1 appreciates me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! y am i so hateable?!?! i hate my life. it sucks. mayb i shud jst end my life instead of endin it wif him?? im heartbroken n i cnt even tell him. he'll only shout at me. like usual. its like hes allowed 2 b pissed off n depressed wen he likes n im nice 2 him n try 2 cheer him up even tho it gets thrown bak in my face bt im not allowed 2 do that. i jst get shouted at 2 get a grip. i no ive only rote 2 entries n im sorry ive bin busy. bt im endin it now. ova. there is nuthin left 4 me. i cnt do this nemore. Love You. u no hu u r if ur readin this!! ill always love you. i dnt no y bt i will. mayb its not even him hu is endin my life. finishin it off. mayb its her. shes such a bitch n i hate her. :'(:'(:'(:'( I HATE LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!