I love you, I'm not gonna crack
Well, it's not over yet. It's not all fixed yet. It looks like things are getting better, but we'll see. (Isn't that always how it is?) The only thing I know for sure is how I feel about him and that I will be there to help any way I can. I only hope that he remembers that fact and that I can make it clear to him. We aren't the most stable of couples, and I'm not ready to get married or anything like that, but I'm ready to see where this takes us now. He needs to do what is best for him, stay healthy, stay optimistic. I need to pursue my own future plans of school and whatnot, focus on getting organized and prepared. We both have individual things to accomplish, but we are good together too. I'm excited for our future and especially to see his progress, because I know he can get better and stay positive if he tries.
I certainly do hate when creeping thoughts come in and ruin a good outlook. Ones that tend to get me are feelings of being completely lost and not knowing what to do, and missing people from the past. Random thoughts or happenings spark waves of feeling and memories of someone from the past, be it a good friend or an ex. Remembering the good times always takes precedence over the bad times and the reason why they aren't in my life anymore. I wonder what could have been. I guess these kind of thoughts never really go away, they just become less frequent and are filed away. They cause me to want to reconnect when I probably shouldn't. I just don't understand why the past always has to creep up when I'm content with the present. It causes me to doubt myself and the thinking won't stop. I really don't like it.
I certainly do hate when creeping thoughts come in and ruin a good outlook. Ones that tend to get me are feelings of being completely lost and not knowing what to do, and missing people from the past. Random thoughts or happenings spark waves of feeling and memories of someone from the past, be it a good friend or an ex. Remembering the good times always takes precedence over the bad times and the reason why they aren't in my life anymore. I wonder what could have been. I guess these kind of thoughts never really go away, they just become less frequent and are filed away. They cause me to want to reconnect when I probably shouldn't. I just don't understand why the past always has to creep up when I'm content with the present. It causes me to doubt myself and the thinking won't stop. I really don't like it.