You look down but far from out
I'm completely scared. I'm so far away and I could lose him at any minute. I don't know what to do. No solution will fix everything. Most of the solutions will create other problems. I want to be there, but I can't. I am so incredibly scared and hurt. I feel helpless and useless.
There's nothing I can do because it's not me. It's him, but it's not him. It's a side effect. It's got to be that. Something so outside of him is controlling his mind and telling him things that aren't right at all. He thinks it's all okay and normal. But in reality, it's nowhere near okay. He is not fine, and it is not going to be okay. As much as I hope and pray that he won't do it, he's already committed. He has thought about it extensively. But these aren't his thoughts, because they are controlled by the madness that he can't stop and doesn't even recognize. He can't just snap out of it because of what someone so thoughtfully says. Our best laid words do absolutely nothing. He needs help. He needs to be fixed. I need him to be fixed.
Please send your thoughts and prayers to the man that I love. He needs them. He needs guidance and comfort. He needs to know that help is necessary, and he needs to see a doctor. I would much rather have him go willingly than make everything much worse by involving more authorities. This isn't him, and he needs to know that it isn't. He can be so much better when his mind isn't controlled by something so outside himself. Please pray for me and others close to him who are trying to help and are ready to take action to save him. We need guidance to do the right thing and find the right timing.
There's nothing I can do because it's not me. It's him, but it's not him. It's a side effect. It's got to be that. Something so outside of him is controlling his mind and telling him things that aren't right at all. He thinks it's all okay and normal. But in reality, it's nowhere near okay. He is not fine, and it is not going to be okay. As much as I hope and pray that he won't do it, he's already committed. He has thought about it extensively. But these aren't his thoughts, because they are controlled by the madness that he can't stop and doesn't even recognize. He can't just snap out of it because of what someone so thoughtfully says. Our best laid words do absolutely nothing. He needs help. He needs to be fixed. I need him to be fixed.
Please send your thoughts and prayers to the man that I love. He needs them. He needs guidance and comfort. He needs to know that help is necessary, and he needs to see a doctor. I would much rather have him go willingly than make everything much worse by involving more authorities. This isn't him, and he needs to know that it isn't. He can be so much better when his mind isn't controlled by something so outside himself. Please pray for me and others close to him who are trying to help and are ready to take action to save him. We need guidance to do the right thing and find the right timing.