Update From OHIO
Thought I’d update My journal a bit. I’m having quite a time in Ohio. It’s funny at my age , how much I haven’t done or tried being that I was the hermit that left my house once a month. First having a girlfriend that actually acknowledges me in public and is not afraid of what people will think is new and it feels good actually. Tiffany well she’s playful and fun loving which is me. I may be 32 but I’ve always felt like a big kid. Life is to short to go through it with your mouth poked out ad angry about every little thing. Actually walked in a mall holding hands. I haven’t walked in mall in over ten years and the last time I did was with someone that was embarrassed to be seen with me. Ate at places other than Mcdonalds that was new going to IHOP and one of those all you can eat places. Just going around the corner with Tiffany to get gas has become a highlight of my day. Oh can’t forget the ICE coffee which I’m hooked on now and cheese conies which were pretty tasty. I can tell I’m gaining weight to just from being able to eat different foods instead of jut something quick like I do when I’m home.
As for Tiffany and her family. Her mom is nice. Doesn’t look her age, no where near it actually and even is playful like her. I was a bit worried about her grandmother but she seems to like me to she’s always playing and poking fun. A little set in her ways but the what Grandmother isn’t. I spent the first few days wondering what Tiffany thought of me as I’m sure she did with me but she makes me happy being here feeling like family kinda reenergized my life. It has me thinking a lot Tiffany is getting ready to go to school for nursing so you know what I think its time to step up myself go back and finish my computer training. Some for me and some for the relationship you could say. I am proud of Tiffany for every thing she’s been through and what she is doing for her life and I am going to show her that I can move forward with her as well.
Her uncles surprisingly enough haven’t been to bad or hard on her since I’ve been here. Funny thing is I’ve talked to them more in what 2 weeks than I’ve talked to my uncles in well I’ve never really talked to my uncles cause all of them look at me like I’m not even capable of adding 1 plus 1. That is unless they want something. Then they come to me. The guy they say isn’t worth shit. Go figure.
I’m staying to Christmas and there is suppose to be lot of people here. Something that hasn’t been for me since I was like 8. For about 8 years my Christmas have been spent by me alone. So it will be new to me for sure. I can’t get Tiffany what I really want to but that’s a different story. I do see her looking when we walk through the mall and I’m hoping I can get her something nice and make her smile on Christmas. Actually I wish i could get everyone something. That’s just how I am
What’s next for me. I dunno. I really am going to continue to get life on track when I get home. I just hope Tiffany knows I’m not like the others. she won’t get any letters or e-mails with me explaining that I’m leaving or anything...it’s kinda bad but the first thing I will do is put money aside to bring her down and visit me on one of her breaks from school. Well that’s all for now *looks over at Tiffany still sleeping* I’m definitely feeling new and happy again.
As for Tiffany and her family. Her mom is nice. Doesn’t look her age, no where near it actually and even is playful like her. I was a bit worried about her grandmother but she seems to like me to she’s always playing and poking fun. A little set in her ways but the what Grandmother isn’t. I spent the first few days wondering what Tiffany thought of me as I’m sure she did with me but she makes me happy being here feeling like family kinda reenergized my life. It has me thinking a lot Tiffany is getting ready to go to school for nursing so you know what I think its time to step up myself go back and finish my computer training. Some for me and some for the relationship you could say. I am proud of Tiffany for every thing she’s been through and what she is doing for her life and I am going to show her that I can move forward with her as well.
Her uncles surprisingly enough haven’t been to bad or hard on her since I’ve been here. Funny thing is I’ve talked to them more in what 2 weeks than I’ve talked to my uncles in well I’ve never really talked to my uncles cause all of them look at me like I’m not even capable of adding 1 plus 1. That is unless they want something. Then they come to me. The guy they say isn’t worth shit. Go figure.
I’m staying to Christmas and there is suppose to be lot of people here. Something that hasn’t been for me since I was like 8. For about 8 years my Christmas have been spent by me alone. So it will be new to me for sure. I can’t get Tiffany what I really want to but that’s a different story. I do see her looking when we walk through the mall and I’m hoping I can get her something nice and make her smile on Christmas. Actually I wish i could get everyone something. That’s just how I am
What’s next for me. I dunno. I really am going to continue to get life on track when I get home. I just hope Tiffany knows I’m not like the others. she won’t get any letters or e-mails with me explaining that I’m leaving or anything...it’s kinda bad but the first thing I will do is put money aside to bring her down and visit me on one of her breaks from school. Well that’s all for now *looks over at Tiffany still sleeping* I’m definitely feeling new and happy again.