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They say all bad things come in 3's...
1. lost my apt
2. lost my job
3. lost my Lex
He said we shouldnt see eachother anymore... There wasnt deffinence in his voice... everyone I know who knows us says he is just getting a case of cold feet. 5 hours after he walked away from me I went to his house to talk to him about it... I told him a lot of things I was too much of a hard ass to tell him. He didnt say much except that he was confused... when I asked why he said that earlier he was so sure he had made the right decision... and now he wasnt sure.
I have never fought for anything in my life. If I loose something or someone I always chalk it up to fate and just watch it leave my life. But I will be damned if I am going to let the one thing that means the most to me walk out of my life with out a fight.
Sure we have been having our problems... in fact they where occuring the past two months... we have sort of been teatering on loving and hurting one another... but love does that... it has its ups and downs. Love is not deffinate means for eternal happiness. I think the differences that he and I have can be worked out. And I know that he and I can work through them and come out a better couple.
He told me that he was affraid to continue our relationship because he would end up being hurt in the end. I told him I was affraid of not continuing it because I would be hurt till my end. He loves me still he has said so... he is just one to bow out as soon as he thinks its going down hill... "save face and leave, before she gets mean. You know how to act. You've scripted this scene. This films more a short. A monolouge of sorts. Now ask yourself quietly, feel free to answer honestly. Its ok you are alone now. Was it worth one last friend?"
sure I have had my doubts about us before... but I dont now. I guess when you have the threat of loosing something from your life you think about the impact loosing it would cause... when he told me it was over, I did nothing but think about it. And I cant see my life with out him... I dont want to see my life with out him.
He is that one bright like at the end of all the dark days... that one great feeling that flutters your stomach and speeds up your heart. He is that one heart I want to crawl inside and NEVER, EVER leave.
I'm not giving up.
1. lost my apt
2. lost my job
3. lost my Lex
He said we shouldnt see eachother anymore... There wasnt deffinence in his voice... everyone I know who knows us says he is just getting a case of cold feet. 5 hours after he walked away from me I went to his house to talk to him about it... I told him a lot of things I was too much of a hard ass to tell him. He didnt say much except that he was confused... when I asked why he said that earlier he was so sure he had made the right decision... and now he wasnt sure.
I have never fought for anything in my life. If I loose something or someone I always chalk it up to fate and just watch it leave my life. But I will be damned if I am going to let the one thing that means the most to me walk out of my life with out a fight.
Sure we have been having our problems... in fact they where occuring the past two months... we have sort of been teatering on loving and hurting one another... but love does that... it has its ups and downs. Love is not deffinate means for eternal happiness. I think the differences that he and I have can be worked out. And I know that he and I can work through them and come out a better couple.
He told me that he was affraid to continue our relationship because he would end up being hurt in the end. I told him I was affraid of not continuing it because I would be hurt till my end. He loves me still he has said so... he is just one to bow out as soon as he thinks its going down hill... "save face and leave, before she gets mean. You know how to act. You've scripted this scene. This films more a short. A monolouge of sorts. Now ask yourself quietly, feel free to answer honestly. Its ok you are alone now. Was it worth one last friend?"
sure I have had my doubts about us before... but I dont now. I guess when you have the threat of loosing something from your life you think about the impact loosing it would cause... when he told me it was over, I did nothing but think about it. And I cant see my life with out him... I dont want to see my life with out him.
He is that one bright like at the end of all the dark days... that one great feeling that flutters your stomach and speeds up your heart. He is that one heart I want to crawl inside and NEVER, EVER leave.
I'm not giving up.