Out In Front.

[lifes_disease]

I want to be one of those people that people pay attention to. I want to feel important. In other words I want to be loved. I know that my friends who read this will go on to say that you are loved Chris and there isn't a thing you can do to change that. But is that really enough. I mean how much love can one person want. I want friends around me. To hang with me and treat me like an equal. I'm slowly starting to get that. I made some friends at my new job. And we've all been hanging out every now and than. It's a nice change of pace. It's just something that I have been needing. I find myself tho looking to others for compassion and love. If someone shows me the little bit of compassion I seem to be all over it. I'm scared to start something new. To start over on a lot of things. But I know it's something that I need to do. I am a single person. I've never asked for anything in my life. I stood in the back and do nothing. When is it my turn to be up front? When is it my turn? You know how hard it is to be in a relationship in fear of being alone. I don't know what to do anymore. I guess I really need to start gaining my composer and doing more things. I just don't know. Who is willing to take in someone and love me uncontrollably? I love you long time. lol.

There it is. One more day. One less day.

-Chris-