Jun 25, 2010 01:06
You know what keeps me going? What keeps me going is that even when I feel so ugly, unwanted and unloved? You. You're always there with a reassuring hug or a shoulder to cry on. You never minded when I cried until I soaked you with my tears, or when I'm just quietly sniffling when we're on the phone. The concern you show me never fails. I love how you always look so shocked when you find out I've been crying, or the lopsided grin you show when I do something weird. The way you brush my hair out of my face, and they way you hold me. Your whole being just echoes with love for me.
Sometimes I feel like you're too busy for me, and I start to think again that I'm not important to you. But you always come back to me and assure me all over again. (I am aware that I sound very needy, but I am) I admire how you rarely get irritated with me when I question your affection for me, or when I probe into personal matters. I do not know exactly all you sacrificed for me, but I can imagine it to be a lot, the size of Africa maybe. I am in love with every atom of your being, and the way your love radiates and warms me like a fire in winter.
Thank you for being real, for accepting me as I am, even though since Day One you've known me to be highly neurotic. And for telling me that I'm not a burden even when I know I am. For sharing all your secrets with me, and trusting me. I know it's not easy. And also, for being yourself when you're with me. Just everything - for your presence. It is sufficient for me. I can only thank you so much for our memories, and for exploring new horizons that I could have never imagined with me.
I may not be your one and only forever, but at least I know I'm the first.
I left footprints in your heart, they'll be yours forever - just like how I hope to be also.
Here's to you, me, and our future family.