so much to say

[lifeotheparty]

There are so many things i would love to put in here. Things have been really crazy for me lately. Both good and bad. Bad first. My poor wonderful kitty cat Benjamin, who is a wonderful pet, a spectacular friend, and most of all, a beautiful living creature, who's life is coming to an end. He's old, very very old. In the last few months his heath has deteriorated so much, and in the last few days, he hasn't eaten or drank a single drop of water. His time has come. Everytime that I feel like ive accepted his death, the grief washes over me again. Sometimes i just want to break down and fall apart. I bet there are people out there who think its stupid to get so upset of a cat, but this is no regular cat. He's been my companion for most of my life, slept in my bed, right beside me almost every night for so many years. I've grown accustom to his soft purring in the middle of the night, when he wakes me up for a midnight petting. Benjamin, my little benny bones, your boy is here, and i will come find you in whatever universe comes after this. I love you, and ill never forget about you.

Time for the good. Something short and simple. Things feel right again. My life feel right, and there is no denying that is has a lot to do with the amazing woman who has supported through so much, is comforting me through my struggle with the death of my friend, and most of all, she's just plain there for me. You know I love you, i have since the day I met you, and will for all time. Thanks for visiting me today, it's made the unbearable bearable. much love to my other half, my better half.

~Mark