when things like breathing feel like a waste,
these last week or so has been probably my best week ever, in the worst ways.
I haven't had any problems at all, I haven't done anything. Ive been so blank I don't know if I will be able to find myself again. Barely anything is exciting, or funny to me. it seems impossible to laugh, and smile without faking it. when the few friends you have decide they feel like ditching me when all I want is a good laugh, or maybe even a smile... I don't think jessica is all that this is about. When people make promises to be there for you, these "friends" I have are liars.
I really need someone right now..
i really want to smile right now.
I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it’s over when I open them
I want the things that I had before
Like a star wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again
Close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful someday
Promises mean everything when you’re little
And the world’s so big
I just don’t understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
Tell me everything is wonderful now
Please don’t tell me everything is wonderful now
I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it’s all okay
I laugh aloud so my friends won’t know
When the bell rings I just don’t wanna go home
Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don’t believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful someday
Promises mean everything when you’re little
And the world is so big
I just don’t understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now
No, I don’t wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
I don’t wanna hear you say
That I will understand someday
I don’t wanna hear you say
You both have grown in a different way
I don’t wanna meet your friends
And I don’t wanna start over again
I just want my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Some days I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything
Please don’t tell me everything is wonderful now...
I don’t wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
I haven't had any problems at all, I haven't done anything. Ive been so blank I don't know if I will be able to find myself again. Barely anything is exciting, or funny to me. it seems impossible to laugh, and smile without faking it. when the few friends you have decide they feel like ditching me when all I want is a good laugh, or maybe even a smile... I don't think jessica is all that this is about. When people make promises to be there for you, these "friends" I have are liars.
I really need someone right now..
i really want to smile right now.
I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it’s over when I open them
I want the things that I had before
Like a star wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again
Close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful someday
Promises mean everything when you’re little
And the world’s so big
I just don’t understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
Tell me everything is wonderful now
Please don’t tell me everything is wonderful now
I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it’s all okay
I laugh aloud so my friends won’t know
When the bell rings I just don’t wanna go home
Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don’t believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful someday
Promises mean everything when you’re little
And the world is so big
I just don’t understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now
No, I don’t wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
I don’t wanna hear you say
That I will understand someday
I don’t wanna hear you say
You both have grown in a different way
I don’t wanna meet your friends
And I don’t wanna start over again
I just want my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Some days I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything
Please don’t tell me everything is wonderful now...
I don’t wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now