And I write this in blood.
so i went threw tonight and cleaned some stuff of my journal.
I sometimes forget that this is not my own private diary to write as i please in. there are people that can be hurt by my words and there are people that will make sure others see my words. thanks.fuck that scenester cunt you know who you are.
i am not a perfect person. i dont try to ever say that if you read "all" my journals not just selected ones. i am truely sorry for the hurt i caused it was not intentinal. i spoke of things effecting me to get them off my chest..not to be a poison arrow sent to someones heart. i was not trying to make anyone feel low or to be looked at that way. i also was not trying to do anything harmful to anyone.
i had spent the last 2-3 years of my life with one of the most incredible person i have ever known.maybe that is not seen here because i was speaking on what was currently hurting me or going on with myself. i learned so much over these years from heather that no one could ever comprehend. she kept me inline so many times and i did the same for her..or we tried i guess.she has helped me become the man that i am today..and i will always be thankful for her forever for that. no one can or could take back the millions of laughs and goodtimes we had. but also we cant take back the people we have become..sadly enough.
so times change and we changed with them. i hope those good memories run fresh always. what i truly hope is that in our new times and friendship we stay close. people always have good intentions on this but rarely keep to there words. i hope we can. i could speak forever but i will just stop here.
in the end i hope the best for heather. i hope she has a bright and good future. as for me..i will see if i care about that someother time.
i think this is my last post for awhile.
I sometimes forget that this is not my own private diary to write as i please in. there are people that can be hurt by my words and there are people that will make sure others see my words. thanks.fuck that scenester cunt you know who you are.
i am not a perfect person. i dont try to ever say that if you read "all" my journals not just selected ones. i am truely sorry for the hurt i caused it was not intentinal. i spoke of things effecting me to get them off my chest..not to be a poison arrow sent to someones heart. i was not trying to make anyone feel low or to be looked at that way. i also was not trying to do anything harmful to anyone.
i had spent the last 2-3 years of my life with one of the most incredible person i have ever known.maybe that is not seen here because i was speaking on what was currently hurting me or going on with myself. i learned so much over these years from heather that no one could ever comprehend. she kept me inline so many times and i did the same for her..or we tried i guess.she has helped me become the man that i am today..and i will always be thankful for her forever for that. no one can or could take back the millions of laughs and goodtimes we had. but also we cant take back the people we have become..sadly enough.
so times change and we changed with them. i hope those good memories run fresh always. what i truly hope is that in our new times and friendship we stay close. people always have good intentions on this but rarely keep to there words. i hope we can. i could speak forever but i will just stop here.
in the end i hope the best for heather. i hope she has a bright and good future. as for me..i will see if i care about that someother time.
i think this is my last post for awhile.