my beautiful disaster
last night he said this: "its just hard for me to try to reach out when I know that any moment I might go to far and you might want space again, its as if you wanted to dissappear, or wanted me to disappear. when I look at you, I'm afraid the same thing will happen again, I will do something to go to far, and you will go away again, im afraid of that."
And then I told him I love him. Because I do. He's my beautiful disaster.
But we WILL fix this.
He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He’s as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right
He's magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him?
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight
Oh and I don't know
I don't know what is after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster