just thinking out loud
Love doesn't die, that's just stupid.
No matter what nothing helps.
I can have fun & enjoy myself, but I still feel it.
I sit here and watch things fade away.
That's all I can do.
Sit. Watch.
Part of me won't ever be the same.
Part of me will never change.
I love him, but it's a lost cause.
Because slowly...I'm being erased.
God does things I don't understand.
Family needs everyone to be complete.
I know everything happens for a reason.
But I don't understand the reasons.
I wish I could see.
Know. Hear. View.
But I can't, won't.
I can help them though.
At least I know that.
I'm good for something.
I pray.
One day I'll look back.
I'll know that everything worked out ok.
Today just won't be that day.
My smile is my lie.
My laugh my distraction.
They make you think I'm ok.
But I'm not.
I live my life the best way I can.
It just never seems to be enough.
I fail. I try. I fall... I fly.
Someday I'll be worth it, to someone.