ten day meme day two.
continuing the ten day meme that i ganked from xtingu.
Day One
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four things you want in a romantic partner.
Day Eight: Three of your favorite possessions.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life or yourself right now.
Day Ten: One confession
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1. from kindergarten through high school i was a pretty depressed and insecure person. the seed of change for this happened in the summer between my senior year in high school and my first year as an undergrad, and after about ten years i eventually became a pretty self-assured, confident, and optimistic person. it feels pretty great.
2. i'm fiercely loyal to the people i love, and no amount of time or space ever diminishes that.
3. i try very hard to be myself in all situations, which isn't that difficult to do given that despite the fact that i have a lot of layers that not anyone sees, i consider all of those layers even in segments to be a part of who i am. i like it when people discover layers that they didn't think existed without any real guidance or steering from me.
4. eating too much chocolate makes my nose break out in zits.
5. i always have some degree of deliberate chaos in my life as a reminder that the world is inherently more chaotic than stable. i feel that life is most effectively lived by embracing and adapting to change and never letting myself become too comfortable with everything. the practical way in which i do this is with my clocks, which with the exception of my mobiles and my pocket watch i deliberately set to wrong times.
6. when i play poker at the casino, i generally have my sunglasses on my head but off of my eyes when i'm not involved in the hand and then put them down when i'm in the hand. this is for both practical and philosophical reasons. Practically i can't usually see my hole cards well enough with my sunglasses on so i wait until i know what my hole cards are before putting them down if i get involved in the hand. Philosophically i definitely do better at hiding my tells when i have my sunglasses down, but otherwise i want to be an open and friendly personality rather than one who is shut off. i also wear sunglasses as a self-mocking thing because i kind of think that regardless of the benefits of wearing them it makes people look slightly ridiculous.
7. despite the fact that i'm a pretty self-assured and confident person, i don't think i'm actually *great* at anything. i know i'm a talented individual, but when it comes down to it that talent has a peak that would fall below my standard of excellence if it were important for me to specialize in that talent. there are a few exceptions to this, most of which have to do with how i relate to people, none of which have to do with a concrete skill.
8. most of the romantic relationships i've ever been in have been at least four or five years long and most of those have had some sort of overlap since i've had more non-monogamous relationships than monogamous ones.
9. i hold writing implements differently than most other people i know. the base of the implement goes in between my pointing and middle finger and the tip is wedged somewhere between my middle and ring finger with general equal support from the middle finger, ring finger, and thumb to guide and control what i write. I started doing this in my undegraduate degree when i saw one of my professors do it and discovered how much more relaxing a grip it was when the more traditional way used to give me cramps.
and in case that wasn't enough, i did [this] a little while back and a lot of it still pertains to me.