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[lifeofanobody]

-A Letter to Jamie-

You saw me for the first time since it happened last thursday
You looked so different
almost a stranger
I didn't know how to feel

My friends tell me you love me
I can't understand why
when our eyes connect I feel you looking through
to the otherside

I still have that funny feeling in my stomach
when I start to forget you
then I see your face
And realize you'll never be the same
It hurts so bad

Mrs. Walker told me you forgot my name again
Said she asked you what was wrong
Saw the tear on your cheek
Look of frustration in your eyes

I heard your parents argueing last night
It's the third time this week
They showed me the photos of you in your hospital bed
And told me to never tell you

I overheard Mrs. Fredricks talking to my mother
She said Her husband picked you up again
And you hardly remembered him
He almost had to convince you who he was and
Where you were and came from

I feel like we're complete strangers now
we haven't spoke in months
The only time I see you
I wouldn't dare look at you
I think that only confuses you more
I feel you there

I found an envelope with my name on it
It was in your handwriting
I showed it to you
You pretended you didn't know who I was
I hated you for it

then I remembered what happened
and cried myself to sleep again