Friends and Far too little sleep
So it has been a good few days. I went with a few friends to the Art Museum a few days ago and discovered that they are still my friends but maybe now only in a context. Maybe we need to be at a museum or a movie and can no longer be friends at a house or a park bench.
In Any case I had a fun sat night which Josh summed up rather well. I got little sleep and a crick in my neck but I can deal. so today I had a long musical practice which was surprisingly fun filled with many of us huddled around a small TV set, basking in the warm glow of our team's tight but decisive victory. We laughed as we butchered beautiful music and tried on our 1st class pajamas.
So I had some thoughts today about friends as I watched everyone interacting in the Adath Israel ballroom. I discovered this year what may seem obvious to the rest of you but was not to me. I get to choose who my friends are. I get to choose who my friends are.
Until now I think situation and convenience chose my friends for me. People that I saw equaled my friends. People that liked me equaled people that I liked. Essentialy people and situations chose my friends. My friends chose me and I accepted this.
So this year I realized that I could choose people that I didn't really want to hang out with and people that I did even if it wasn't convenient. Today I realized something that should perhaps follow naturally but didn't. Just because people made my list of who I want to be friends with doesn't mean I made their list.
People that I have been friends with for years may have cut me off their list this year whether I like it or not. I'm afraid this has happened with a few specific people. I need some shut eye so I'll leave it at that for now. Goodnight.
In Any case I had a fun sat night which Josh summed up rather well. I got little sleep and a crick in my neck but I can deal. so today I had a long musical practice which was surprisingly fun filled with many of us huddled around a small TV set, basking in the warm glow of our team's tight but decisive victory. We laughed as we butchered beautiful music and tried on our 1st class pajamas.
So I had some thoughts today about friends as I watched everyone interacting in the Adath Israel ballroom. I discovered this year what may seem obvious to the rest of you but was not to me. I get to choose who my friends are. I get to choose who my friends are.
Until now I think situation and convenience chose my friends for me. People that I saw equaled my friends. People that liked me equaled people that I liked. Essentialy people and situations chose my friends. My friends chose me and I accepted this.
So this year I realized that I could choose people that I didn't really want to hang out with and people that I did even if it wasn't convenient. Today I realized something that should perhaps follow naturally but didn't. Just because people made my list of who I want to be friends with doesn't mean I made their list.
People that I have been friends with for years may have cut me off their list this year whether I like it or not. I'm afraid this has happened with a few specific people. I need some shut eye so I'll leave it at that for now. Goodnight.