December 26th
Elijah tells his family about his sexuality and runs to Orlando's for a place to escape, and finds out his friend is in a worse situation then he is.
music obsessed81: *Elijah walked up to Orli's front door and rang the bell. He kept his head down and covered his eyes with his hand and rubbed his eyes with his fingers.*
bloomyelf: After a pretty significant lag in time Orli hauled the door open, smiling crookedly at Elijah. "Hi." He looked pretty wretched, his hair freshly washed but not even as close to styled as it occasionally got. He pulled the door the rest of the way open and waved him in, trying not to fret that he was miserably underdressed. "How'd it go?"
music obsessed81: Elijah entered his home slowly and glanced up at his friend as he walked passed. His eyes were red from crying and rubbing at them and still tear filled. "Fucking miserable.." he said quietly, once inside completely.
bloomyelf: Orlando sighed, shaking his head a little as he pushed the door closed behind Elijah. He started walking - hobbling, really, moving with exaggerated care to keep his braced back from moving any more than absolutely necessary - towards the kitchen, waving with his hand for Elijah to follow. "Let me get you some vodka and orange juice, that'll make everything feel at least a little better."
music obsessed81: He followed, keeping his hands tucked inside his pants pockets, every now and again taking one out and wiping his eyes. "Just orange juice, if that's okay. I'd like to try and get home tonight if it's even possible..” Once in the kitchen he sat himself in one of the chairs at the table and rested his arm on the table, burying his face in it.
bloomyelf: Orlando just shook his head, portioning out orange juice into two heavy glass tumblers before pushing one of them carefully across the counter to Elijah. "Just as well, I'd pout outrageously if you could get sauced and I couldn't."
music obsessed81: Lij let the glass gently hit his arm to stop and he didn't move for a minute, but lifted his head and sat back in the chair with a heavy sigh. He ran a finger around the rim of the glass, not taking a drink of it yet. After a long few moments he finally spoke, though keeping his voice quiet. "She flipped..."
bloomyelf: Orli nodded, carefully walking around the bar to ease himself up onto the bar stool next to Elijah. He swirled his juice in his glass, resting his forearms on the bar. Something about the tense line of his shoulder and jaw said that his malaise didn't really have anything at all to do with Lij. "Wasn't your fault."
music obsessed81: "Well sure it is. I'm the one who told them, I'm the one who's bi," Elijah said, looking over at Orli's drink and watched the yellowy-orange liquid swirl around. "Mom started yelling at me.. kept calling me gay. Zach looked disgusted with what I had said. But Hannah.." he let out a small chuckle. "I love her. She was a little confused at first, apparently had never heard the term before, but she could care less. I'm her brother and that's all she sees."
bloomyelf: Orlando smiled, just a little bitterly. "At least now they know. I mean, your mum loves you, she's not likely to hate you forever, for something that's part of you." He gritted his teeth a little, and took a long drink. He curled his toes under the bar at the bottom of the barstool, his back hunched in a way that couldn't possibly be good for his back. "Han sounds a doll. You're lucky to have someone who- Who loves you no matter what."
music obsessed81: "Yeah she's great. And I'm pretty sure mom will calm down. It was just a shock for her.. obviously." He stared back at his glass and took a drink of the juice. He paused a moment and glanced over at Orli, hearing him stutter a little at the end of his sentence. "Are you okay?"
bloomyelf: Orlando's rough, unhappy laughter twisted the corners of his lips down, and his knuckles cracked when he balled them into fists, he tightened his hands so quickly. "Yeah, I'm fucking brilliant." He looked down, then over at Elijah, something hurt and miserable glistening in the corners of his eyes. "Don't I look fucking brilliant?"
music obsessed81: Elijah looked at Orli's hands hearing them pop lightly and his eyes widened a little, never really seeing him like this then looked up into his eyes. His mouth gaped open a little and he shook his head slightly. "Fuck, what happened to you?"
bloomyelf: Orlando couldn't keep himself from laughing, soft and low and full of hurt. "Dom. What else would've happened to me?" He reached a foot down and when it hit the ground he lurched forward, half-falling against Elijah's chest. He turned his face to Elijah's neck, breath hot against his pale skin. "'s my fault, of course. It's always my fucking fault."
music obsessed81: Elijah held out his hands for a moment, a little surprised at what Orli was doing, but rested a hand on his back and ran the other up and down his neck, trying to calm him and whispered quietly. "Sshh.. Whatever it was, I'm sure it wasn't your fault."
bloomyelf: Orli sighed, a little, his brows crunching together as he tried his best not to wince, not to jerk away from Elijah's hand on his back. He fisted his hand in Elijah's shirt and buried his nose against his neck with a wet snuffle. "Yeah. 'course it wasn't my fault, wanting to fucking spend time with him." Oh-so-reluctantly he moved back, like every jolt of every joint hurt, and blinked miserably at Lij, his lips turned down at the corners into a pathetic frown. "C- Can... Can we sit down? My back's fucking' killing me."
music obsessed81: Elijah's breathing hitched for a moment when Orli clenched to his shirt and he looked down at him the best he could. He got his breath back when Orli leaned back and he stared him straight in the eye. "Yes. yes of course we can sit." He stood up and carefully helped Orli to his feet, trying to figure out how to hold him to help him to the living room.
bloomyelf: Orli smiled awkwardly down at Lij, hooking his arm gingerly around Elijah's shoulders. "Hnk. 's not- Y'don't mind, do you? Chrimbo I- I kinda- I hurt my back, alright?" He could feel his cheeks throbbing with red, embarrassment and irritation warring in his voice. "It wasn't a really smart idea, I know. But- But I wanted Dom to be happy."
music obsessed81: Elijah said nothing, but listened intently to every word Orlando said, walking him slowly to the couch.
bloomyelf: When they finally made it to the couch Orlando eased down as well as he could manage, tugging gently at Elijah's hand. He looked up at him with big, pleading brown eyes and asked, voice plaintive. "It's stupid, I know, but- But I just..." He busied himself with tucking his feet up under himself, cheeks rushed with color and eyes downcast. ‘I wanted to give him something special, and instead I'm a fucking whore. Beautiful. Just fucking perfect.’
music obsessed81: Lij knelt down at Orli's knees and held onto his hand. He stared up at him and lifted his other hand and gently placed it on his cheek, lifting his face he stared hard into his friend's eyes. He took a finger and ran it carefully under his eye, pulling down his eyelid just barely too get a better look of it and his expression changed from worry and caring to nervous and scared. "Your eyes..."
bloomyelf: Orli blinked, once, and then again, his brow furrowed and his lips set in an almost childish pout. But when realization dawned he grumbled, reached up to catch Elijah's hand with his own and pull it down to his knee. "'s nothing. Fucking back." It sounded pathetic even to his own ears, and he shook his head, a little, biting sharply at his lower lip. "I'm fine, I promise. I wouldn't do that kind of thing to you." 'Like he does to me. Fucking messages, when he's too shitfaced to walk a line, and never a thought to how I feel about it.'
music obsessed81: Lij shook his head and tried to free his hand to look at his eyes again. "No.. they're dilated, too much. What did you do?" Everything started to hit Elijah at once with how he was acting, the facial expressions, stuttering sentences, his back.. Whatever is wrong with Orlando, it was twice as worse, at least, then Elijah's problem with his family, and right now he figured his friend was more important at the moment. "Shit.. what happened to you? Tell me everything."
bloomyelf: Orli rolled his eyes, his hand tightening around Elijah's just enough to keep him from poking at his face. "I took some meds, okay? I fucked up my back giving Dom a proper seeing to, and then he basically called me a fucking whore, and I didn't want to deal with it, so I took some pills." He shook his head a little, though whether it was at his own miscalculation or at Dom's action is anyone's best guess.
"And then I woke up and my back was fucking killing me, cos I slept on it wrong, so I put on my brace and took some more, on account of I wanted to be able to fucking move today, yeah? Not like fucking Christmas." He sniffed, traitorously, and set Elijah's hand free to rub the back of his knuckles violently against his nose. "'s not a problem, 'cept were I'm a bloody stupid cunt."
music obsessed81: Lij cringed a little as Orli squeezed his hand, but kept it away from his face when he finally let go. "How many did you take?" His voice and expression was filled with worry and he was now starting to get scared for his friend.
bloomyelf: Orli gave Elijah an apologetic look about his hand, taking it back in both of his and smoothing out little soothing patterns against his skin as he thought. His look of concentration would have been almost comical, were what they were talking about not so dead serious. "One of the big ones, two yellows, an' some've the little ones?"
music obsessed81: Elijah shook his head and stood up, he didn't know what the descriptions of the pills ment, but he needed to find out. He slipped his hands from Orlando's and started stepping back, knowing that if he even walked briskly to Orli's bedroom he wouldn't be able to keep up with him.
bloomyelf: Orlando just stared up at Elijah, a little dumbly, the dangerously tear-edged rasp to his voice receding with every breath he took. He swallowed, thickly, and wet his lips, trying not to slouch back against the couch, to keep his back straight. "Whadd'ya need, Lij? I d- I dunno what- Dunno what I c'n do for you."
music obsessed81: "You can do nothing right now but answer my questions," he said and turned to walk out and head toward his bedroom to see if there was anything in it that could help Elijah understand what was wrong with his friend.
bloomyelf: Orli watched Elijah's retreating back helplessly, breath brushing softly through his parted lips. 'I'm sorry I fucked up, whatever it is that I've managed to do now. If you tell me, instead of yelling, I'll try to fix it.'
music obsessed81: Lij entered his room and flipped on the light. He gasped seeing the condition of Orlando's room and he carefully walked around. His eyes landed on the open bottles of pills and he knelt down to pick them up and a gleam caught the corner of his eye. Reaching out he grabbed the neck of a clear bottle and lifted it to him. His mouth fell open reading the label and he looked down at the pills and put two and two together.
Lij closed his eyes and clenched his jaw together, not wanting to scream at Orli from down the hall. Instead he swore quietly between his teeth and squeezed his eyes closed, inhaling deeply to try not to cry and keep himself calm. After a few minutes he rose to his feet and carried the pills and bottle back to the living room. He hid the vodka behind his back and stood across from Orli, holding out the pills. "Are these what you took?"
bloomyelf: Orli's brow furrowed a little, one hand half-reaching for the bottle before he put it back on his knee. "Yeah. Thos're my Percocet, an' Naproxen. Th'hydrocodone're on the other side of the bed, I think. Bloody worthless, they are, but if you take'm all at once, it eases out the transition between the other two. Less spasms, too." It didn't seem to occur to him that Lij might not be interested in the intricacies of his med schedule.
music obsessed81: Elijah sighed and pulled out the bottle from behind him and held it eye level to himself, so Orli would have to look at it and him when talking. "And what the hell is this?"
bloomyelf: Orlando gaped, for a moment, completely at a loss for words for a long moment. Then he firmed up his jaw, a little, and lifted his chin. "I couldn't sleep. Dom was being a cunt and- And I didn't want to be awake. So I wasn't." 'So I drunk myself stupid, you mean. Whichever, it was the same result.' "It was a stupid thing to do, I know. But it's not like he's the prince of healthy relationships with alcohol, either."
music obsessed81: "I know he isn't, I talked to him a little last night before he went out drinking with his brother. But why was this next to your pain killers? Were you using this to wash them down?" Elijah's voice started to become more demanding, though he tried to keep calm.
bloomyelf: At that moment in time, Orli would have given anything to be able to lie with a straight face. He shrugged, a little, and looked down, away, guilt written all over his face. "Was a long way to walk to the bathroom." 'I just wanted to go to sleep. To not have to think any more.'
music obsessed81: Elijah sighed and breathed heavily, scared, angry, and looking for the right words to say, but he let out what he was feeling. Sure it was a mild yell, but he had to be blunt with him to tell him what he was needing to say. "God- Dammit Orli!! You fucking overdosed with your pills and you used this to wash it all down? You could have fucking killed yourself!!"
bloomyelf: Orli sulked. "'s not like I overdosed properly, or anything. I just, um." And at this point he started to look a little embarrassed. "Passed out. But I'm fine now, alright?" He reached up and caught hold of Elijah's wrist, tugging ever-so-carefully to try getting him to sit down, so Orlando could stop craning his neck. "Sit down, will you? I know it's a rush, being taller'n all, but you're killing my neck."
music obsessed81: Lij struggled against Orli's grab a little, but he gave in and sat himself next to him, holding the bottle neck loosely in his hand and lowered his head, breathing staggered to try and hold in tears, but he knew it would be no use. He was too frustrated and scared to control himself.
bloomyelf: As soon as Elijah sat down Orli loosed his grip, started petting idly at his arm instead. He looked down, at his fingers against Lij's so-pale skin, and bit his lip before murmuring, "I know it was stupid. But- but it really hurt, and I didn't want it to, any more than it'd done already."
music obsessed81: Elijah's staggered breathing clearly showed that he was crying although he still tried to fight it. He shook his head and managed to whisper between breaths. "I don't know what to say, Orlando.."
bloomyelf: Orli stared on, feeling completely miserable and wretched. He wrested the bottles from Lij with gentle hands, moving as if he weren't sure if Elijah would let him take them at all, whether or not he would lash out. After he set them back on the coffee table he v-e-r-y carefully turned, tucking one long leg up under him, so he could look at Elijah with serious, worried eyes. "Say that I was stupid, mate. Say that I'm a fucking idiot and that I- That I deserve whatever I got, doing something like that, even this fucking bum back of mine. Just-"
His hand fell, caught and clutched at Lij's knee with something like quiet desperation. "Just don't pretend I don't exist, will you? Cos I couldn't handle both my best mates doing that."
music obsessed81: Elijah allowed his friend to take the bottles away from him, but he didn't move from his current position, nor when he started talking. He thought of Orli's suggestions on what to say to him, and he wanted to say that. He wanted to say everything and more, but he couldn't gather the courage to go off on him that way. Lij's head twitched instantly as Orli's hand grabbed his knee and his eyes stared at his skin. He slowly lifted his head, eyes following the length of the man's arm and met his eyes and kept his shaky voice just above a whisper. "I would never do that. And after this I don't think there's anyway I could."
bloomyelf: There was so much sadness in Orlando's smile that even though there was gratitude in his eyes, the whole effect was pretty awful. He looked down, at his hand on Lij's knee, and bit gently at his own lower lip while he pet lightly at the soft denim of Elijah's jeans. "Then you're a lot better off than some people. Even if you do think I'm a fucking moron. And- And like an addict or something."
music obsessed81: Lij looked back down at Orli's hand and he rested one of his own hands over it with a sigh and closed his eyes. After a moment he looked back up staring straight and deep into Orlando's dark brown eyes. "Dom still loves you.."
bloomyelf: Orlando's mouth twisted, a rough snort only partly masking his almost-sob. "'course he does. That's why he said all I wanted was sex, an' then went and got piss drunk. 'at's why he's always scribbling away on things, leaving me notes that I can hardly even read. 'at's real love, right there."
music obsessed81: Lij's heart twisted hearing all this, but he reached up with his other hand and placed it on Orli's cheek. "He gave his brother a black eye last night! He said something about you that insulted Dom and he punched him... He wouldn't have done that if he didn't like you.." He sighed and brushed Orli's cheek lightly with his thumb.
bloomyelf: The way Orlando turned his face into Elijah's hand was purely instinct, almost catlike. His lashes - starting to clump together as moisture collected on them, still not quite to the point of tears - fluttered down to kiss his cheeks and he sighed. "I just. I-"
His sharp, even white teeth cut into his lower lip and he clutched a little at Elijah's leg, like he didn't quite know what to do.
music obsessed81: Lij's face scrunched up a little from the grip on his knee, but it was far from painful to him, so he didn't push Orli's hand away. He felt horrible, seeing his friend in such pain as he was, both emotionally and physically. He wanted to help, in some way like he would always offer to Dom, but continuously got turned down. He hoped Orlando would act differently and there would be something for him to do. " What do you want me to do? I'll do anything.."
bloomyelf: Orlando hiccupped a wet little sigh, brows furrowed, his hand slipping a little up Elijah's leg. "I- I dunno, mate." He blinked his eyes open, still not entirely focused as he leaned in towards Lij almost imperceptibly. "I just- I dunno."
music obsessed81: Elijah noticed the hand movement, but took no real notice to it and let his hand slip down to Orli's neck as he leaned in. "There has to be something.. I mean it, Orlando, whatever you want. I just don't want to see you this way."
bloomyelf: Orli let his teeth rake over his bottom lip, slowly, and when he was done they stayed parted. He brought his free hand up to drag the backs of his fingers over the height of Elijah's cheek and said, breathless. "I just- I dun wanna be alone."
music obsessed81: He looked at him a sadly and a little confused, but he finally understood what he was hinting and he opened his mouth to say something, but no words came out. 'Damn..' He wouldn't be able to stay because he didn't want to worry his family, especially Hannah and it might be awkward if he took Orli home with him. He looked at him, wanting to speak again, but instead he gave in and leaned forward, closing his eyes and kissed him gently. He stayed there for a moment before breaking it slowly and looked away, keeping his face mere inches away from Orli's.
bloomyelf: Orli's lips stayed softly parted for a moment before his eyes blinked open, then he pressed them together, like he wanted to keep the feel of Elijah's kiss on them. He looked at Lij, making a tiny, helpless face, and gently cupped his cheek. "'m sorry, mate, I- I should- I- Christ-" He shook his head with a little frustrated sound and leaned further forward, the long line of his shin pressed up against the side of Elijah's leg. "I just-" 'Don't want to be by myself. I want to be needed, and- and I sort of want... you.'
music obsessed81: Lij looked back at him when he cupped his cheek and barely spoke. "Orlando..." He took both his hands away from Orli's neck and hand on his knee and placed them on his calf muscle. "I would do this for you if both of us weren't already with someone else.. I don't know what I can do to make this work. To make you happy."
bloomyelf: Orlando nodded, letting his hand drop as he turned his head, looked at the wall as he drug a hand down his face. "Yeah. I just- I dunno." He bit his lip sharply and turned to face Lij again, embarrassment and shame painted high across his cheeks in red. "Take me to bed? Like, not that way. Just... I need to lie down, I think. Before I do something I'm gonna regret."
music obsessed81: He nodded and slowly stood up. "Of course.." He held out his arms to help Orli stand allowing him to position his arms comfortably around his back or shoulders so he could walk.
bloomyelf: Orlando hauled himself up to standing with a pained grimace and had to hold onto Lij's shoulders to stay standing as the fact that he hadn't eaten since the day before hit him, on top of all the painkillers he was on. Once he was steady on his feet he looped an arm around Elijah' shoulders and leaned his head against his temple, breath still raspy. "Thanks, mate. Sorry I'm such rubbish company."
music obsessed81: Lij laces his fingers with Orli's hand around his shoulders and tried to find a place to wrap his other arms around to keep him steady. "No, no.. You’re fine. You're in severe pain, I wouldn't expect more from you."
bloomyelf: Just as soon as they started walking Orlando tripped, clinging desperately to Elijah as he giggled softly. "On account of me trying to give my boyfriend a fucking surprise. Cos I'm a fucking moron and though he'd like it." He murmured it against Elijah's jaw, obviously having trouble remaining standing.
music obsessed81: Elijah quickly reacted and caught him carefully, grinning a little as he laughed. "I'm sure he did like it though.. if it caused you to throw your back out." He looked around, standing still for anything that might help make the move easier on Orli. "You don't have.. a wheelchair, or anything, do you? I can't carry you to your room, it's to hard for you to walk.."
bloomyelf: Orlando snorted, softly, cheek still pressed against Elijah's temple. "No chair. I can make it, no problem. Wot d'I look like, a cripple?" And then he giggled again, softly, and pet gently at Elijah's hair with his free hand. "I'm just wobbly, is all."
music obsessed81: Lij chuckled a little at the question, then closed his eyes as Orli's fingers tangled in his hair and a small shiver went down his spine. He inhaled and opened his eyes. "You sure? You'll be okay?"
bloomyelf: Orli turned his head a little to smile against Elijah's cheek, his breath warm against Lij's skin. "Yeah. 'd like it if you stayed, though." He paused, for an almost imperceptible moment, then murmured softly, "Just 'til I went to sleep. Dun' wanna fall asleep alone."
music obsessed81: "Yeah.. yeah I'll stay." He whispered, walking slowly and delicately toward his room. 'Shit.. poor guy.. I'd stay the entire night if my family wasn't over.. I don't want to leave him once he's finally asleep. I don't want him to wake up and do the same thing as last night.' He sighed sadly, thinking of this, and trying to work out a plan.
bloomyelf: Orlando made a soft, pleased sound and half-stumbled the rest of the way to his bed leaning heavily on Lij. Once his shins hit the edge of the bed, though, he carefully disentangled himself from his shorter friend and gave him an apologetic look. "Sorry. Might take a bit."
music obsessed81: Lij did as best he could to keep his friend's weight even so he wouldn't fall. He froze, stopping at the bed and loosened his already light hold on him so Orli would work his way out of the hold. "Take your time. I don't want you to hurt."
bloomyelf: Orli snickered, softly, and rolled his eyes as he turned to oh-so-carefully sit on the edge of the bed. "More, you mean. I'm the genius with the bum back, remember." He scooted back in tiny increments and finally laid down, holding out his arms. "Come on. 'least I don't have to worry 'bout you making the bed dent in." Not that Orlando did, either.
music obsessed81: Lij nodded when Orli mentioned making his back worse and he was right. He smiled at the last sentence and crawled carefully on the bed, and up to the top of his head, sitting crossed legged and looked down at him with a calm smile.
bloomyelf: Orlando smiled up at Lij, no longer even trying to pull his eyes into focus. "Lie with me? 's okay, if you don't wanna, but... 's lonely." He patted carefully at the bed next to him, even as he shifted a little, trying to find a comfortable place to lay. "And hand me that pillow, would you?"
music obsessed81: He reached around him and grabbed the pillow Orli pointed out and handed it to him then crouched over and watched over him quietly.
bloomyelf: Orlando very carefully pulled himself to sitting and set it behind him, then laid back with a rough, ragged groan. "Nnngh. Oh, God. I hate being this broken." He let his head loll to the side on his pillow, smiling sadly at Elijah. "I'm too young to have to deal with this shit, yanno?"
music obsessed81: Lij smiled and took his free hand and ran his fingers gently through Orli's mohawk. "That's what you get for being Mr. Risk-taker. You just need rest, you'll get better. You have you, you're fucking Legolas! You immortal, mate!" He grinned, hoping to lighten the mood a little.
bloomyelf: Orlando laughed as he tipped his head back into Elijah's touch, eyes slipping closed. "Yeah. I've got forever to feel like this." He reached up and let his hand fall against Lij's leg, clutching softly at the denim of his jeans just above his ankle. "Wish you'd lay down, man. 'm s'fuckin' tired."
music obsessed81: He smiled, still combing his hair with his fingers. "Then go to sleep. I'm right here, I'll stay here."
bloomyelf: Orli nodded, a little, and wet his lips with a slow drag of his tongue then patted at the bed next to him. "Come down here, will you? Please?"
music obsessed81: He said nothing and pulled his fingers from Orli's hair and slid down. Laying on his side to face Orli he folded his arms under his head for a makeshift pillow then smiled at him. "There.."
bloomyelf: Orlando smiled and turned as far as he could manage, blinking his eyes open to smile dreamily at Elijah. "Thanks. Bein' alone's rubbish fun." He reached across his chest and grabbed gently at Elijah's shirt, just to feel that he was there.
music obsessed81: Lij gasped a little and looked down and Orli's hand that grabbed his shirt and took his free hand and rested it on his arm. He looked back and lifted his head to fold his other arm in the opposite direction to brush his fingers on the border of his friend's hair. "Anytime.. just call me and I'll come over."
bloomyelf: Orli smiled, slow and blissful, and let his eyes slip closed. "Mmmokay." Within a few minutes, he was asleep.
music obsessed81: His eyes focused on Orli and once he was asleep he sighed and rested his forehead against Orlando's, eyes closed, and breathlessly whispered so quietly it was barely heard. "I love you, Orlando..."
music obsessed81: *Elijah walked up to Orli's front door and rang the bell. He kept his head down and covered his eyes with his hand and rubbed his eyes with his fingers.*
bloomyelf: After a pretty significant lag in time Orli hauled the door open, smiling crookedly at Elijah. "Hi." He looked pretty wretched, his hair freshly washed but not even as close to styled as it occasionally got. He pulled the door the rest of the way open and waved him in, trying not to fret that he was miserably underdressed. "How'd it go?"
music obsessed81: Elijah entered his home slowly and glanced up at his friend as he walked passed. His eyes were red from crying and rubbing at them and still tear filled. "Fucking miserable.." he said quietly, once inside completely.
bloomyelf: Orlando sighed, shaking his head a little as he pushed the door closed behind Elijah. He started walking - hobbling, really, moving with exaggerated care to keep his braced back from moving any more than absolutely necessary - towards the kitchen, waving with his hand for Elijah to follow. "Let me get you some vodka and orange juice, that'll make everything feel at least a little better."
music obsessed81: He followed, keeping his hands tucked inside his pants pockets, every now and again taking one out and wiping his eyes. "Just orange juice, if that's okay. I'd like to try and get home tonight if it's even possible..” Once in the kitchen he sat himself in one of the chairs at the table and rested his arm on the table, burying his face in it.
bloomyelf: Orlando just shook his head, portioning out orange juice into two heavy glass tumblers before pushing one of them carefully across the counter to Elijah. "Just as well, I'd pout outrageously if you could get sauced and I couldn't."
music obsessed81: Lij let the glass gently hit his arm to stop and he didn't move for a minute, but lifted his head and sat back in the chair with a heavy sigh. He ran a finger around the rim of the glass, not taking a drink of it yet. After a long few moments he finally spoke, though keeping his voice quiet. "She flipped..."
bloomyelf: Orli nodded, carefully walking around the bar to ease himself up onto the bar stool next to Elijah. He swirled his juice in his glass, resting his forearms on the bar. Something about the tense line of his shoulder and jaw said that his malaise didn't really have anything at all to do with Lij. "Wasn't your fault."
music obsessed81: "Well sure it is. I'm the one who told them, I'm the one who's bi," Elijah said, looking over at Orli's drink and watched the yellowy-orange liquid swirl around. "Mom started yelling at me.. kept calling me gay. Zach looked disgusted with what I had said. But Hannah.." he let out a small chuckle. "I love her. She was a little confused at first, apparently had never heard the term before, but she could care less. I'm her brother and that's all she sees."
bloomyelf: Orlando smiled, just a little bitterly. "At least now they know. I mean, your mum loves you, she's not likely to hate you forever, for something that's part of you." He gritted his teeth a little, and took a long drink. He curled his toes under the bar at the bottom of the barstool, his back hunched in a way that couldn't possibly be good for his back. "Han sounds a doll. You're lucky to have someone who- Who loves you no matter what."
music obsessed81: "Yeah she's great. And I'm pretty sure mom will calm down. It was just a shock for her.. obviously." He stared back at his glass and took a drink of the juice. He paused a moment and glanced over at Orli, hearing him stutter a little at the end of his sentence. "Are you okay?"
bloomyelf: Orlando's rough, unhappy laughter twisted the corners of his lips down, and his knuckles cracked when he balled them into fists, he tightened his hands so quickly. "Yeah, I'm fucking brilliant." He looked down, then over at Elijah, something hurt and miserable glistening in the corners of his eyes. "Don't I look fucking brilliant?"
music obsessed81: Elijah looked at Orli's hands hearing them pop lightly and his eyes widened a little, never really seeing him like this then looked up into his eyes. His mouth gaped open a little and he shook his head slightly. "Fuck, what happened to you?"
bloomyelf: Orlando couldn't keep himself from laughing, soft and low and full of hurt. "Dom. What else would've happened to me?" He reached a foot down and when it hit the ground he lurched forward, half-falling against Elijah's chest. He turned his face to Elijah's neck, breath hot against his pale skin. "'s my fault, of course. It's always my fucking fault."
music obsessed81: Elijah held out his hands for a moment, a little surprised at what Orli was doing, but rested a hand on his back and ran the other up and down his neck, trying to calm him and whispered quietly. "Sshh.. Whatever it was, I'm sure it wasn't your fault."
bloomyelf: Orli sighed, a little, his brows crunching together as he tried his best not to wince, not to jerk away from Elijah's hand on his back. He fisted his hand in Elijah's shirt and buried his nose against his neck with a wet snuffle. "Yeah. 'course it wasn't my fault, wanting to fucking spend time with him." Oh-so-reluctantly he moved back, like every jolt of every joint hurt, and blinked miserably at Lij, his lips turned down at the corners into a pathetic frown. "C- Can... Can we sit down? My back's fucking' killing me."
music obsessed81: Elijah's breathing hitched for a moment when Orli clenched to his shirt and he looked down at him the best he could. He got his breath back when Orli leaned back and he stared him straight in the eye. "Yes. yes of course we can sit." He stood up and carefully helped Orli to his feet, trying to figure out how to hold him to help him to the living room.
bloomyelf: Orli smiled awkwardly down at Lij, hooking his arm gingerly around Elijah's shoulders. "Hnk. 's not- Y'don't mind, do you? Chrimbo I- I kinda- I hurt my back, alright?" He could feel his cheeks throbbing with red, embarrassment and irritation warring in his voice. "It wasn't a really smart idea, I know. But- But I wanted Dom to be happy."
music obsessed81: Elijah said nothing, but listened intently to every word Orlando said, walking him slowly to the couch.
bloomyelf: When they finally made it to the couch Orlando eased down as well as he could manage, tugging gently at Elijah's hand. He looked up at him with big, pleading brown eyes and asked, voice plaintive. "It's stupid, I know, but- But I just..." He busied himself with tucking his feet up under himself, cheeks rushed with color and eyes downcast. ‘I wanted to give him something special, and instead I'm a fucking whore. Beautiful. Just fucking perfect.’
music obsessed81: Lij knelt down at Orli's knees and held onto his hand. He stared up at him and lifted his other hand and gently placed it on his cheek, lifting his face he stared hard into his friend's eyes. He took a finger and ran it carefully under his eye, pulling down his eyelid just barely too get a better look of it and his expression changed from worry and caring to nervous and scared. "Your eyes..."
bloomyelf: Orli blinked, once, and then again, his brow furrowed and his lips set in an almost childish pout. But when realization dawned he grumbled, reached up to catch Elijah's hand with his own and pull it down to his knee. "'s nothing. Fucking back." It sounded pathetic even to his own ears, and he shook his head, a little, biting sharply at his lower lip. "I'm fine, I promise. I wouldn't do that kind of thing to you." 'Like he does to me. Fucking messages, when he's too shitfaced to walk a line, and never a thought to how I feel about it.'
music obsessed81: Lij shook his head and tried to free his hand to look at his eyes again. "No.. they're dilated, too much. What did you do?" Everything started to hit Elijah at once with how he was acting, the facial expressions, stuttering sentences, his back.. Whatever is wrong with Orlando, it was twice as worse, at least, then Elijah's problem with his family, and right now he figured his friend was more important at the moment. "Shit.. what happened to you? Tell me everything."
bloomyelf: Orli rolled his eyes, his hand tightening around Elijah's just enough to keep him from poking at his face. "I took some meds, okay? I fucked up my back giving Dom a proper seeing to, and then he basically called me a fucking whore, and I didn't want to deal with it, so I took some pills." He shook his head a little, though whether it was at his own miscalculation or at Dom's action is anyone's best guess.
"And then I woke up and my back was fucking killing me, cos I slept on it wrong, so I put on my brace and took some more, on account of I wanted to be able to fucking move today, yeah? Not like fucking Christmas." He sniffed, traitorously, and set Elijah's hand free to rub the back of his knuckles violently against his nose. "'s not a problem, 'cept were I'm a bloody stupid cunt."
music obsessed81: Lij cringed a little as Orli squeezed his hand, but kept it away from his face when he finally let go. "How many did you take?" His voice and expression was filled with worry and he was now starting to get scared for his friend.
bloomyelf: Orli gave Elijah an apologetic look about his hand, taking it back in both of his and smoothing out little soothing patterns against his skin as he thought. His look of concentration would have been almost comical, were what they were talking about not so dead serious. "One of the big ones, two yellows, an' some've the little ones?"
music obsessed81: Elijah shook his head and stood up, he didn't know what the descriptions of the pills ment, but he needed to find out. He slipped his hands from Orlando's and started stepping back, knowing that if he even walked briskly to Orli's bedroom he wouldn't be able to keep up with him.
bloomyelf: Orlando just stared up at Elijah, a little dumbly, the dangerously tear-edged rasp to his voice receding with every breath he took. He swallowed, thickly, and wet his lips, trying not to slouch back against the couch, to keep his back straight. "Whadd'ya need, Lij? I d- I dunno what- Dunno what I c'n do for you."
music obsessed81: "You can do nothing right now but answer my questions," he said and turned to walk out and head toward his bedroom to see if there was anything in it that could help Elijah understand what was wrong with his friend.
bloomyelf: Orli watched Elijah's retreating back helplessly, breath brushing softly through his parted lips. 'I'm sorry I fucked up, whatever it is that I've managed to do now. If you tell me, instead of yelling, I'll try to fix it.'
music obsessed81: Lij entered his room and flipped on the light. He gasped seeing the condition of Orlando's room and he carefully walked around. His eyes landed on the open bottles of pills and he knelt down to pick them up and a gleam caught the corner of his eye. Reaching out he grabbed the neck of a clear bottle and lifted it to him. His mouth fell open reading the label and he looked down at the pills and put two and two together.
Lij closed his eyes and clenched his jaw together, not wanting to scream at Orli from down the hall. Instead he swore quietly between his teeth and squeezed his eyes closed, inhaling deeply to try not to cry and keep himself calm. After a few minutes he rose to his feet and carried the pills and bottle back to the living room. He hid the vodka behind his back and stood across from Orli, holding out the pills. "Are these what you took?"
bloomyelf: Orli's brow furrowed a little, one hand half-reaching for the bottle before he put it back on his knee. "Yeah. Thos're my Percocet, an' Naproxen. Th'hydrocodone're on the other side of the bed, I think. Bloody worthless, they are, but if you take'm all at once, it eases out the transition between the other two. Less spasms, too." It didn't seem to occur to him that Lij might not be interested in the intricacies of his med schedule.
music obsessed81: Elijah sighed and pulled out the bottle from behind him and held it eye level to himself, so Orli would have to look at it and him when talking. "And what the hell is this?"
bloomyelf: Orlando gaped, for a moment, completely at a loss for words for a long moment. Then he firmed up his jaw, a little, and lifted his chin. "I couldn't sleep. Dom was being a cunt and- And I didn't want to be awake. So I wasn't." 'So I drunk myself stupid, you mean. Whichever, it was the same result.' "It was a stupid thing to do, I know. But it's not like he's the prince of healthy relationships with alcohol, either."
music obsessed81: "I know he isn't, I talked to him a little last night before he went out drinking with his brother. But why was this next to your pain killers? Were you using this to wash them down?" Elijah's voice started to become more demanding, though he tried to keep calm.
bloomyelf: At that moment in time, Orli would have given anything to be able to lie with a straight face. He shrugged, a little, and looked down, away, guilt written all over his face. "Was a long way to walk to the bathroom." 'I just wanted to go to sleep. To not have to think any more.'
music obsessed81: Elijah sighed and breathed heavily, scared, angry, and looking for the right words to say, but he let out what he was feeling. Sure it was a mild yell, but he had to be blunt with him to tell him what he was needing to say. "God- Dammit Orli!! You fucking overdosed with your pills and you used this to wash it all down? You could have fucking killed yourself!!"
bloomyelf: Orli sulked. "'s not like I overdosed properly, or anything. I just, um." And at this point he started to look a little embarrassed. "Passed out. But I'm fine now, alright?" He reached up and caught hold of Elijah's wrist, tugging ever-so-carefully to try getting him to sit down, so Orlando could stop craning his neck. "Sit down, will you? I know it's a rush, being taller'n all, but you're killing my neck."
music obsessed81: Lij struggled against Orli's grab a little, but he gave in and sat himself next to him, holding the bottle neck loosely in his hand and lowered his head, breathing staggered to try and hold in tears, but he knew it would be no use. He was too frustrated and scared to control himself.
bloomyelf: As soon as Elijah sat down Orli loosed his grip, started petting idly at his arm instead. He looked down, at his fingers against Lij's so-pale skin, and bit his lip before murmuring, "I know it was stupid. But- but it really hurt, and I didn't want it to, any more than it'd done already."
music obsessed81: Elijah's staggered breathing clearly showed that he was crying although he still tried to fight it. He shook his head and managed to whisper between breaths. "I don't know what to say, Orlando.."
bloomyelf: Orli stared on, feeling completely miserable and wretched. He wrested the bottles from Lij with gentle hands, moving as if he weren't sure if Elijah would let him take them at all, whether or not he would lash out. After he set them back on the coffee table he v-e-r-y carefully turned, tucking one long leg up under him, so he could look at Elijah with serious, worried eyes. "Say that I was stupid, mate. Say that I'm a fucking idiot and that I- That I deserve whatever I got, doing something like that, even this fucking bum back of mine. Just-"
His hand fell, caught and clutched at Lij's knee with something like quiet desperation. "Just don't pretend I don't exist, will you? Cos I couldn't handle both my best mates doing that."
music obsessed81: Elijah allowed his friend to take the bottles away from him, but he didn't move from his current position, nor when he started talking. He thought of Orli's suggestions on what to say to him, and he wanted to say that. He wanted to say everything and more, but he couldn't gather the courage to go off on him that way. Lij's head twitched instantly as Orli's hand grabbed his knee and his eyes stared at his skin. He slowly lifted his head, eyes following the length of the man's arm and met his eyes and kept his shaky voice just above a whisper. "I would never do that. And after this I don't think there's anyway I could."
bloomyelf: There was so much sadness in Orlando's smile that even though there was gratitude in his eyes, the whole effect was pretty awful. He looked down, at his hand on Lij's knee, and bit gently at his own lower lip while he pet lightly at the soft denim of Elijah's jeans. "Then you're a lot better off than some people. Even if you do think I'm a fucking moron. And- And like an addict or something."
music obsessed81: Lij looked back down at Orli's hand and he rested one of his own hands over it with a sigh and closed his eyes. After a moment he looked back up staring straight and deep into Orlando's dark brown eyes. "Dom still loves you.."
bloomyelf: Orlando's mouth twisted, a rough snort only partly masking his almost-sob. "'course he does. That's why he said all I wanted was sex, an' then went and got piss drunk. 'at's why he's always scribbling away on things, leaving me notes that I can hardly even read. 'at's real love, right there."
music obsessed81: Lij's heart twisted hearing all this, but he reached up with his other hand and placed it on Orli's cheek. "He gave his brother a black eye last night! He said something about you that insulted Dom and he punched him... He wouldn't have done that if he didn't like you.." He sighed and brushed Orli's cheek lightly with his thumb.
bloomyelf: The way Orlando turned his face into Elijah's hand was purely instinct, almost catlike. His lashes - starting to clump together as moisture collected on them, still not quite to the point of tears - fluttered down to kiss his cheeks and he sighed. "I just. I-"
His sharp, even white teeth cut into his lower lip and he clutched a little at Elijah's leg, like he didn't quite know what to do.
music obsessed81: Lij's face scrunched up a little from the grip on his knee, but it was far from painful to him, so he didn't push Orli's hand away. He felt horrible, seeing his friend in such pain as he was, both emotionally and physically. He wanted to help, in some way like he would always offer to Dom, but continuously got turned down. He hoped Orlando would act differently and there would be something for him to do. " What do you want me to do? I'll do anything.."
bloomyelf: Orlando hiccupped a wet little sigh, brows furrowed, his hand slipping a little up Elijah's leg. "I- I dunno, mate." He blinked his eyes open, still not entirely focused as he leaned in towards Lij almost imperceptibly. "I just- I dunno."
music obsessed81: Elijah noticed the hand movement, but took no real notice to it and let his hand slip down to Orli's neck as he leaned in. "There has to be something.. I mean it, Orlando, whatever you want. I just don't want to see you this way."
bloomyelf: Orli let his teeth rake over his bottom lip, slowly, and when he was done they stayed parted. He brought his free hand up to drag the backs of his fingers over the height of Elijah's cheek and said, breathless. "I just- I dun wanna be alone."
music obsessed81: He looked at him a sadly and a little confused, but he finally understood what he was hinting and he opened his mouth to say something, but no words came out. 'Damn..' He wouldn't be able to stay because he didn't want to worry his family, especially Hannah and it might be awkward if he took Orli home with him. He looked at him, wanting to speak again, but instead he gave in and leaned forward, closing his eyes and kissed him gently. He stayed there for a moment before breaking it slowly and looked away, keeping his face mere inches away from Orli's.
bloomyelf: Orli's lips stayed softly parted for a moment before his eyes blinked open, then he pressed them together, like he wanted to keep the feel of Elijah's kiss on them. He looked at Lij, making a tiny, helpless face, and gently cupped his cheek. "'m sorry, mate, I- I should- I- Christ-" He shook his head with a little frustrated sound and leaned further forward, the long line of his shin pressed up against the side of Elijah's leg. "I just-" 'Don't want to be by myself. I want to be needed, and- and I sort of want... you.'
music obsessed81: Lij looked back at him when he cupped his cheek and barely spoke. "Orlando..." He took both his hands away from Orli's neck and hand on his knee and placed them on his calf muscle. "I would do this for you if both of us weren't already with someone else.. I don't know what I can do to make this work. To make you happy."
bloomyelf: Orlando nodded, letting his hand drop as he turned his head, looked at the wall as he drug a hand down his face. "Yeah. I just- I dunno." He bit his lip sharply and turned to face Lij again, embarrassment and shame painted high across his cheeks in red. "Take me to bed? Like, not that way. Just... I need to lie down, I think. Before I do something I'm gonna regret."
music obsessed81: He nodded and slowly stood up. "Of course.." He held out his arms to help Orli stand allowing him to position his arms comfortably around his back or shoulders so he could walk.
bloomyelf: Orlando hauled himself up to standing with a pained grimace and had to hold onto Lij's shoulders to stay standing as the fact that he hadn't eaten since the day before hit him, on top of all the painkillers he was on. Once he was steady on his feet he looped an arm around Elijah' shoulders and leaned his head against his temple, breath still raspy. "Thanks, mate. Sorry I'm such rubbish company."
music obsessed81: Lij laces his fingers with Orli's hand around his shoulders and tried to find a place to wrap his other arms around to keep him steady. "No, no.. You’re fine. You're in severe pain, I wouldn't expect more from you."
bloomyelf: Just as soon as they started walking Orlando tripped, clinging desperately to Elijah as he giggled softly. "On account of me trying to give my boyfriend a fucking surprise. Cos I'm a fucking moron and though he'd like it." He murmured it against Elijah's jaw, obviously having trouble remaining standing.
music obsessed81: Elijah quickly reacted and caught him carefully, grinning a little as he laughed. "I'm sure he did like it though.. if it caused you to throw your back out." He looked around, standing still for anything that might help make the move easier on Orli. "You don't have.. a wheelchair, or anything, do you? I can't carry you to your room, it's to hard for you to walk.."
bloomyelf: Orlando snorted, softly, cheek still pressed against Elijah's temple. "No chair. I can make it, no problem. Wot d'I look like, a cripple?" And then he giggled again, softly, and pet gently at Elijah's hair with his free hand. "I'm just wobbly, is all."
music obsessed81: Lij chuckled a little at the question, then closed his eyes as Orli's fingers tangled in his hair and a small shiver went down his spine. He inhaled and opened his eyes. "You sure? You'll be okay?"
bloomyelf: Orli turned his head a little to smile against Elijah's cheek, his breath warm against Lij's skin. "Yeah. 'd like it if you stayed, though." He paused, for an almost imperceptible moment, then murmured softly, "Just 'til I went to sleep. Dun' wanna fall asleep alone."
music obsessed81: "Yeah.. yeah I'll stay." He whispered, walking slowly and delicately toward his room. 'Shit.. poor guy.. I'd stay the entire night if my family wasn't over.. I don't want to leave him once he's finally asleep. I don't want him to wake up and do the same thing as last night.' He sighed sadly, thinking of this, and trying to work out a plan.
bloomyelf: Orlando made a soft, pleased sound and half-stumbled the rest of the way to his bed leaning heavily on Lij. Once his shins hit the edge of the bed, though, he carefully disentangled himself from his shorter friend and gave him an apologetic look. "Sorry. Might take a bit."
music obsessed81: Lij did as best he could to keep his friend's weight even so he wouldn't fall. He froze, stopping at the bed and loosened his already light hold on him so Orli would work his way out of the hold. "Take your time. I don't want you to hurt."
bloomyelf: Orli snickered, softly, and rolled his eyes as he turned to oh-so-carefully sit on the edge of the bed. "More, you mean. I'm the genius with the bum back, remember." He scooted back in tiny increments and finally laid down, holding out his arms. "Come on. 'least I don't have to worry 'bout you making the bed dent in." Not that Orlando did, either.
music obsessed81: Lij nodded when Orli mentioned making his back worse and he was right. He smiled at the last sentence and crawled carefully on the bed, and up to the top of his head, sitting crossed legged and looked down at him with a calm smile.
bloomyelf: Orlando smiled up at Lij, no longer even trying to pull his eyes into focus. "Lie with me? 's okay, if you don't wanna, but... 's lonely." He patted carefully at the bed next to him, even as he shifted a little, trying to find a comfortable place to lay. "And hand me that pillow, would you?"
music obsessed81: He reached around him and grabbed the pillow Orli pointed out and handed it to him then crouched over and watched over him quietly.
bloomyelf: Orlando very carefully pulled himself to sitting and set it behind him, then laid back with a rough, ragged groan. "Nnngh. Oh, God. I hate being this broken." He let his head loll to the side on his pillow, smiling sadly at Elijah. "I'm too young to have to deal with this shit, yanno?"
music obsessed81: Lij smiled and took his free hand and ran his fingers gently through Orli's mohawk. "That's what you get for being Mr. Risk-taker. You just need rest, you'll get better. You have you, you're fucking Legolas! You immortal, mate!" He grinned, hoping to lighten the mood a little.
bloomyelf: Orlando laughed as he tipped his head back into Elijah's touch, eyes slipping closed. "Yeah. I've got forever to feel like this." He reached up and let his hand fall against Lij's leg, clutching softly at the denim of his jeans just above his ankle. "Wish you'd lay down, man. 'm s'fuckin' tired."
music obsessed81: He smiled, still combing his hair with his fingers. "Then go to sleep. I'm right here, I'll stay here."
bloomyelf: Orli nodded, a little, and wet his lips with a slow drag of his tongue then patted at the bed next to him. "Come down here, will you? Please?"
music obsessed81: He said nothing and pulled his fingers from Orli's hair and slid down. Laying on his side to face Orli he folded his arms under his head for a makeshift pillow then smiled at him. "There.."
bloomyelf: Orlando smiled and turned as far as he could manage, blinking his eyes open to smile dreamily at Elijah. "Thanks. Bein' alone's rubbish fun." He reached across his chest and grabbed gently at Elijah's shirt, just to feel that he was there.
music obsessed81: Lij gasped a little and looked down and Orli's hand that grabbed his shirt and took his free hand and rested it on his arm. He looked back and lifted his head to fold his other arm in the opposite direction to brush his fingers on the border of his friend's hair. "Anytime.. just call me and I'll come over."
bloomyelf: Orli smiled, slow and blissful, and let his eyes slip closed. "Mmmokay." Within a few minutes, he was asleep.
music obsessed81: His eyes focused on Orli and once he was asleep he sighed and rested his forehead against Orlando's, eyes closed, and breathlessly whispered so quietly it was barely heard. "I love you, Orlando..."