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i guess i realy have gotten away from my self lately. ,music has been my life and i havent given it just ice lately i can tell because when i pick up a pair of sticks i dont feel it as much i feel the burn i love but my chops are diminishing and thats not cool especially being a teacher yah know..
i also havent given my ears its love ive taken a side step away from my heavier influences but that doesnt mean i dont listen to them i just have other things going that mean more know i have a general idea of where i want to be in the next years and thats for me to know and for you to see.
ive chhanged alot lately but for the better when i look bettter i repeect my body i have respect for myself and i have an outlook on life that i have never had before.
ive beeen able to express my innner most feelings i have never expressed before and it feels great =)
i in 21 years have bnever been able to open up this much before and its not like im forced to give up information i just pretty much just let it all out.
its just spills from my soul into her ears and she accepts it and accepts me
its the best feeling in the world to finally feel like i i finally found my place i am finally accepted.
my first year in reeths puffer was the most horrific time of my life things got a little bit better i had a few amazing friends which know i dont even talk to and its sad. .
it may sound ridiculouse but it feels good to just let it all out im not writingg out of anger o pain i have found a new found interest in writing down my feelings so i can look back and analyze what i have to say it gives me a chance to think about what i say before i say it , which i have a terrible habit of not doing ...
as of right know i feel as if i have jjust scrapped a miniscual portion of a surface that i want to explore even more and as i scrape and dig i find out more and more some thigns hurt but 99% .\
i have a problem new founded with jelousy and i realy neeed to get over it because if there is one thing that is going to fuck up what i have its that. its hard when you,ve been hurt depression hit me hard last time but i think heaven forbid iff nething did happen i have a support group and a leveel headed mind know i could handle it
i truly love adore and admire every ounce of energy, light , and love that is given to me by her it inspiires me i feel as if i dont have to hide behind that asshoel mask that i wore in high school i can truly finally be myself its invigorating to feel this way it just make me want to run to the hilltops and scream thank you
os an overall consenses i would have to say my life is pretty funkin amazing right know allthhough my blood maybee hundreds of miles away i have formed a new famiy right here in my house with my five other roomates it feels great
i love life i love her i love you and most importantly i love myself more then i ever have before thank you for making me feel loveable your amazing ...
much love
<3 jay
i also havent given my ears its love ive taken a side step away from my heavier influences but that doesnt mean i dont listen to them i just have other things going that mean more know i have a general idea of where i want to be in the next years and thats for me to know and for you to see.
ive chhanged alot lately but for the better when i look bettter i repeect my body i have respect for myself and i have an outlook on life that i have never had before.
ive beeen able to express my innner most feelings i have never expressed before and it feels great =)
i in 21 years have bnever been able to open up this much before and its not like im forced to give up information i just pretty much just let it all out.
its just spills from my soul into her ears and she accepts it and accepts me
its the best feeling in the world to finally feel like i i finally found my place i am finally accepted.
my first year in reeths puffer was the most horrific time of my life things got a little bit better i had a few amazing friends which know i dont even talk to and its sad. .
it may sound ridiculouse but it feels good to just let it all out im not writingg out of anger o pain i have found a new found interest in writing down my feelings so i can look back and analyze what i have to say it gives me a chance to think about what i say before i say it , which i have a terrible habit of not doing ...
as of right know i feel as if i have jjust scrapped a miniscual portion of a surface that i want to explore even more and as i scrape and dig i find out more and more some thigns hurt but 99% .\
i have a problem new founded with jelousy and i realy neeed to get over it because if there is one thing that is going to fuck up what i have its that. its hard when you,ve been hurt depression hit me hard last time but i think heaven forbid iff nething did happen i have a support group and a leveel headed mind know i could handle it
i truly love adore and admire every ounce of energy, light , and love that is given to me by her it inspiires me i feel as if i dont have to hide behind that asshoel mask that i wore in high school i can truly finally be myself its invigorating to feel this way it just make me want to run to the hilltops and scream thank you
os an overall consenses i would have to say my life is pretty funkin amazing right know allthhough my blood maybee hundreds of miles away i have formed a new famiy right here in my house with my five other roomates it feels great
i love life i love her i love you and most importantly i love myself more then i ever have before thank you for making me feel loveable your amazing ...
much love
<3 jay