Suicide note
Dated 3-17-2000
I found this in some papers I've had a long time and it gave me the the chills, brings back a lot of memories..
For those of you who have received a copy of this letter, tears of overwhelming sadness may enter your eyes, for it is to inform you of a decision I have contemplated for a very long time. My intent was not to purposely provide you with this immediate, grief, anger, and confusion, that you may feel, but to make you aware of my thoughts and emotional distress at this time that do not seem to vanish but to continue to flourish as my life goes on. I'm tired of this cold, cruel, apathetic world who seems to only feed off of ones pain and misery. So to you, who I love, I'm sorry for what pain I will cause you but hope that you may learn and become stronger than I was in this struggle of what we call life, learn from my weaknesses and from my mistakes. Know that I leave loving each and every one of you who has touched my life, maybe it's for the better, and know that none of you were the cause of this, my overly mixed up and warped mind led me to be weak, remember me for who I was not and not what I've done.
Much Love
Charles
I found this in some papers I've had a long time and it gave me the the chills, brings back a lot of memories..
For those of you who have received a copy of this letter, tears of overwhelming sadness may enter your eyes, for it is to inform you of a decision I have contemplated for a very long time. My intent was not to purposely provide you with this immediate, grief, anger, and confusion, that you may feel, but to make you aware of my thoughts and emotional distress at this time that do not seem to vanish but to continue to flourish as my life goes on. I'm tired of this cold, cruel, apathetic world who seems to only feed off of ones pain and misery. So to you, who I love, I'm sorry for what pain I will cause you but hope that you may learn and become stronger than I was in this struggle of what we call life, learn from my weaknesses and from my mistakes. Know that I leave loving each and every one of you who has touched my life, maybe it's for the better, and know that none of you were the cause of this, my overly mixed up and warped mind led me to be weak, remember me for who I was not and not what I've done.
Much Love
Charles