OH YEAH COOL ADE NIGGA!

[lifeisxdeath]

wassup nuckkas? so yea.... thursday was my little brothers birthday and monday(yesterday) was my other little brothers birthday so saturday we went to chuckeecheese, sunday we went to knotts berry farm, and yesterday we went to some ice cream place called ferrels i think..... yea...i was fucking bored all weekend. Saturday night was fucking fun though. Saw ten seconds to go(tstg) at studio s and they fucking kicked ass. Before they show we(me, adrian, kaneddy) hung out in the tstg's van. HaHAA they know be name so thats pretty cool(i've hung out with them before when i was hanging out with adrian[he went on a u.s. tour with them during the summer]). but whatever it was cool i like chilling with those guys and manny(the bass player) is fucking cool as hell. It was fucking freezing too it was fucking raining but it was cooled they played an acoustic set in their van for us before they actually played a set for everybody else. Knotts was ok i was fucking bored and lonely.....fuck...by monday i fuckin missed her so much i felt like shit too. that ice cream place was kinda weak anyways.....i miss her i'll see her later today though so thats ok.... while i was writing this i was listning to a song called manateen

im feel like im becoming
a butterfly
or a golden bee
my smiles like razor blades
when i smile it cuts pretty deep
my body is in the magazines
my face on the tv
my voice on the radio
thats me in my dreams
but when i open my eyes
im just a piece of SHIT!
A WORTHLESS COWARD
A VAPID WHORE
A MORAL-LESS REFUGEE
COVERED IN SORES
A BLITHERING SEA COW
LOST IN ITS DREAMS
NOBODY LIKES ME, YEAH
NOBODY WANTS ME AT ALL
NOBODY LIKES ME, YEAH

wet blue world-- it fills me up
i find im deep inside
waves crash and i breathe water
but i havent died
i wont come up
i wont come up for air
i wont come up
i wont come up for air

.....and beneath the waves
i hide my head in darker waters
and nobody sees
.....i cut myself
and hope to draw you in
but even sharks pass by
please explain

all alone im growing older
laughter like cancer over my shoulder
mirrors like hatchets to the wound of my face
you know im a complete.....
IM A COMPLETE DISGRACE

IM NOT A MANATEEN
IM NOT A MANATEEN
JUST LEAVE ME ALONE
JUST LEAVE ME ALONE

.....and beneath the sea
i give up and i descend
and im finally free

...and in the end
wet blue world-- fills me up
fills me deep inside
waves crash and i breathe water
but i havent died
NEVER
WITH FURIOUS POISON IN MY HEART
WILL I RETURN FROM THE DARKER WATERS
I LET THE TIDE TEAR ME APART
NEVER
WITH FURIOUS POISON IN MY VEINS
WILL I RETURN FROM THE DARKER WATERS
I WONT HOLD MY BREATH AND WAIT FOR CHANGE
I DIE
ITS A SUICIDE
MY BODY SWOLLWED BY THE DEEP BLUE ABYSS
AND INTO THE ENDLESS TIDE
i wont come up
i wont come up
i wont come up for air tonight
i wont come up
i wont come up
i wont come up for air tonight

cold
and all alone
i held my own
but now i give up

i feel like that sometimes......but thats ok.... i have her and she makes me happy....thats all that ever matters to me is her no matter what...i love her.... goodbye for now....