Me, I'm not - Wisconsin 1987
Title: Wisconsin, April 1987
Verse: Me, I'm not.
Author: Lifeisticking
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: None
Rating: Gen
Words: Around 500
Warnings: None
Summary: Sam's imaginary friend is very present, but it's not too worrying. -
Note : John's POV
Wisconsin, April 1987 - Sam, age 4
Sam is still so quiet, John’s starting to worry. He only gets animated with ‘’Dee’’ and himself, which he supposes he’s lucky of getting that much attention at all, considering how much Sam’s imaginary friend makes him happy.
He worries that his kid doesn’t seem interested in making any friends, ignoring other children as if they don’t even exist. He’s also surprised at the things Samuel seemed to pick up on his own; how he’s already starting to read a few words here and there, at only four, how he’s well potty trained and starting to count to ten and identify numbers.
John ruffles his hair and tells him how proud she is, to which he answers that ‘’Dee’’ is too, that he helped him learn. His heart clenches, because if Dean had still been alive, he would have surely been helping his little brother with everything.
When he’s sitting on a bench in the park, watching him play with his imaginary friend, but effectively ignoring everyone else, he sees him take a tumble and graze his knee, and while there’s a few tears in his eyes and he’s already running toward him, he wipes them and smile at thin air, and he can hear him thank ‘’Dee’’ for kissing his ‘’ouchie’’, just like daddy does sometimes, and he gathers him in his arms asking if he’s okay, before kissing his graze as well, and his smile goes wider.
He’s unsure if it’s normal for an imaginary friend to be this present, but since Sam is only four, he’s not about to drag him to see a child psychologist for that. There’s no problem with his kid. He lets him down when he insists he should hold Dee’s hand too, he tells him that if he walks then he can hold Dee’s hand himself. He can see him furrow his face in deep thought, which makes him smile, before agreeing happily. They go back to the rented apartment and he promises him ice cream later.
He had to cut the slack on hunting lately, the trail seeming to dry up, yet he picks a few cases to work on when he sees them and he can have someone babysit Sam; generally he drops him back to Missouri or Pastor Jim when he can, even if it makes him feel guilty, but he always rushes back to him, trying to not miss any important milestone of his son’s life. So far he has missed almost all of them, and he regrets it.
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