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I don’t even know if this counts as emo, but this Chiwithme journal had me scratching my head. I guess she’d be a punk or something but the ambiguity of this entry had me about pissing my pants, mainly due to the overactive nature of my imagination.
So.
Yes, I'm fully aware that I messed up. Big time as they say.
No, I'm not proud of it.
In fact, I'm not only not proud of it, I'm ASHAMED of it.
In case you didn’t get it the first time…or the second time…or the third time, she’s not proud of what she did. Keep in mind at no point during this journal does she actually say what it was that she did.
The thing was, I was SO PROUD of myself at first. Like I did something...impossible. Made myself out to be whore is more like it...
But no.
Ah but she was proud of it. She did something impossible so at this point I’m assuming that it was having a rational thought, though I can’t see that making you a whore.
I can't think that way. I know, I know, it was completely *harmless*. No lasting damage was done, and I'm sure we both didn't suffer whilst it occured, but the whole PRINCIPLE behind it is what kills me. Were not even in CONTACT anymore. How painstakingly SHALLOW is THAT??
Ah, it took two to tango. I’d say it was sex, but…
… I might have Lyme disease.
Wonderful.
See, at this point I think it would help to paint the image that went on in my head as I read this. I pictured her on the beach, with her friends, maybe. A group of young men pass by. Her and her friends giggle, the men laugh. They all fraternize throughout the day. She bats her eyelashes, etc, and finally the young man takes her home. As it turns out, he’s a tick. He bites her. Give her Lyme disease and she never sees him again. Really quite classic.
I've been to the hospital more times in the last two weeks then my whole life. Gotten more blood taken than if I'd been shot in an artery. A MAIN artery. In my NECK. When I was EXERCISING.
This actually made me laugh. Vivid imagery, A+, but you lose points for unnecessary capitalization.
Yeah, that’s all I got for today. Harder to find worthwhile journals, any suggestions welcome.