Junior Year.
This summer/past two years, have been in ways the best and worst years of my life. i've gone through so much shit to be the person i am now. i've been thrown around by my best friends, backstabbed, heart broken, lonely, and alone. i can't even stand to be around the two people that have been around me since birth. it's not that i can't stand them,
how can i possibly feel comfortable around two people who constantly make me feel like i'm not worth living?
how can i possibly be in this house with two people that are supposed to stand by me through thick and thin, but instead they make me feel like i'm the worst person alive.
how can you judge someone when you only see what they're like a fourth of the time?
i had the worst, and i mean the worst year of my life last year. it took me so long to figure out who i am. i haven't got it down, and honestly i dont think anyone truly knows who they are because we are so much swayed by society and people around us, they knock around our characteristics. if it were the me 3 years ago looking at the me now,
9th grade jamie would slap me across the face and say "what the fuck has gotten into you."
because of my appearance.
but i'm a better person, a MUCH better person now, so my appearance really doesn't come into play.
i'm blonde so that makes me stupid, and not capable of a conversation.
i enjoy girly things so i must not be down to earth.
i flirt a lot so i must be easy, and a slut
i have a bad reputation, so everything you hear must be true.
well that's all false. sorry to crush your dreams, but it is.
i'm not who you think i am,
and there isn't anyone on this earth that knows the real me.
and i mean literally no one.
if i dont even know me, how can anyone else?
i realize i'm complex and complicated, but why should that stop you from giving me a chance?
i like to read, so i'm a loser? don't look at me like i'm littler then you, you're no better then me, and who are you to judge whos better?
i dont judge you, why the hell would that give you a right to judge me?
but i guess in the end we all know who the real person is here.
i'm the one with sense, and logic, and i dont let drama, gossip, and reputations run my life.
i'm Jamie.
and thats all for now
how can i possibly feel comfortable around two people who constantly make me feel like i'm not worth living?
how can i possibly be in this house with two people that are supposed to stand by me through thick and thin, but instead they make me feel like i'm the worst person alive.
how can you judge someone when you only see what they're like a fourth of the time?
i had the worst, and i mean the worst year of my life last year. it took me so long to figure out who i am. i haven't got it down, and honestly i dont think anyone truly knows who they are because we are so much swayed by society and people around us, they knock around our characteristics. if it were the me 3 years ago looking at the me now,
9th grade jamie would slap me across the face and say "what the fuck has gotten into you."
because of my appearance.
but i'm a better person, a MUCH better person now, so my appearance really doesn't come into play.
i'm blonde so that makes me stupid, and not capable of a conversation.
i enjoy girly things so i must not be down to earth.
i flirt a lot so i must be easy, and a slut
i have a bad reputation, so everything you hear must be true.
well that's all false. sorry to crush your dreams, but it is.
i'm not who you think i am,
and there isn't anyone on this earth that knows the real me.
and i mean literally no one.
if i dont even know me, how can anyone else?
i realize i'm complex and complicated, but why should that stop you from giving me a chance?
i like to read, so i'm a loser? don't look at me like i'm littler then you, you're no better then me, and who are you to judge whos better?
i dont judge you, why the hell would that give you a right to judge me?
but i guess in the end we all know who the real person is here.
i'm the one with sense, and logic, and i dont let drama, gossip, and reputations run my life.
i'm Jamie.
and thats all for now