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Well... I got my computer hooked back up. It is in my mom's room now... I don't know how long that will last, considering she never lets anyone in her room.
Life seems so overbearing lately. I just want to go to sleep. Forever. All these questions are surfacing, and I don't know how to answer them. All I can think of are smart ass remarks to throw back at myself, pushing my self esteem even further down. Oh well. I'm sure things will become clearer with time.
Friends are telling me one thing, I'm telling myself another. I don't know whose words to go by, I mean, its just so confusing. What happens, happens, I suppose. I just hope there is sincerety and trust. And when things come back around, I won't be the way I was. No more "Whatever makes you happy"'s... When things are mended, I will voice my true opinions in full... And from what I gather, that is probably what was wanted in the first place. I am too submissive, not aggresive, and that's what people want from me. I'm not a pussy... Not anymore...
Life seems so overbearing lately. I just want to go to sleep. Forever. All these questions are surfacing, and I don't know how to answer them. All I can think of are smart ass remarks to throw back at myself, pushing my self esteem even further down. Oh well. I'm sure things will become clearer with time.
Friends are telling me one thing, I'm telling myself another. I don't know whose words to go by, I mean, its just so confusing. What happens, happens, I suppose. I just hope there is sincerety and trust. And when things come back around, I won't be the way I was. No more "Whatever makes you happy"'s... When things are mended, I will voice my true opinions in full... And from what I gather, that is probably what was wanted in the first place. I am too submissive, not aggresive, and that's what people want from me. I'm not a pussy... Not anymore...