epiphany
i came upon the acute realization tonight that i hate my high school. not only the work and pointlessness involved in that, but just the people and general culture. i just never thought that i could apply those cliche complaints about small-mindedness, fake friends, unjustified cruelty, and stereotypes to my high school experience...because its kennebunk! and we are all awesome crazy liberals! and ive always prided our school on getting along and breaking the boundaries of cliques and all that shit. au contraire. we are just another stereotypical saved by the bell high school with jocks and nerds and over-achievers and people who have nothing better to do than...create personas for their peers out of insecurities and boredom.
i dont know. i guess i used to think we were the great exception. the town with kids that had substance. we are "deep". its not true. yea, maybe kennebunk does produce sociologists and theatre majors more than anything else, but ive come to find that a good chunk of people perpetuate everything we (i) pride ourselves on not possessing like its their fucking job
i guess ive just expanded to the point where i have something to compare our amazing enlightened town to. and now that i have, im ready to find even more to compare it to. (and to get out...)
...even if its only for a little while
i dont know. i guess i used to think we were the great exception. the town with kids that had substance. we are "deep". its not true. yea, maybe kennebunk does produce sociologists and theatre majors more than anything else, but ive come to find that a good chunk of people perpetuate everything we (i) pride ourselves on not possessing like its their fucking job
i guess ive just expanded to the point where i have something to compare our amazing enlightened town to. and now that i have, im ready to find even more to compare it to. (and to get out...)
...even if its only for a little while