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Pozo soy justo un poco trastorné hoy, porque Ryan ha decidido de nuevo a ensuciar con mí. Es muy duro amar a alguien cuando es todo lo que él ama ellos mismos. Estoy a través con ser tratado como el crap, así que he decidido que no puedo esperar hasta que salgo de este lugar. ¡Si no consigo aceptado a BYU-I que voy a ir insano!Me siento mudo porque me caí totalmente para las mentiras que él me alimentaba. Aprecio que él me dijera la verdad finalmente, pero él me jugó para tal tonto.
Okay, the translation on that is a bit shakey, but whatever. My point is, the truth hurts, but facing the reality hurts so much more. Boys = selfish jerks ! I just don't understand why people do drugs. Can anyone explain to me if I'm wrong? Cuz I'm under the impression that drugs are just for weak people who can't handle their lives, so they turn to drinkin and smokin crap to feel better? Or is it like a cool thing? They don't have enough self-esteem to feel good abouth themselves, so they think it's a mark of being cool. Let me tell you what, it isn't cool, and I think that people who have to do drugs to get away are dumb, because they don't know how to face their problems. I guess ultimately why I'm upset is because I let myself get so wrapped up in him, and hot my hopes up. I actually thought he was changing again, but I was VERY wrong. I'm still worried for him, cause if he keeps drinkin and smokin, he's gonna get hurt. I really enjoy the fact that he was freakin high when he drove over to Tess's house, but especially that he tried to get me to kiss him too. But...it's all okay, because after all, kissing Kelly isn't the same as kissing me? WTF mate? Whatever, all I have to say is that if he really cares about me he'll try to let me be happy instead of worrying about himself 24/7 and just leave me alone. It'd be so much easier then getting my heart stomped on repeated times. I'm out though, I just had to spill a little... lol I love you guys...sorry if u think I'm going like crazy. I'm not, I'm just a bit upset.
xoEricaox
Okay, the translation on that is a bit shakey, but whatever. My point is, the truth hurts, but facing the reality hurts so much more. Boys = selfish jerks ! I just don't understand why people do drugs. Can anyone explain to me if I'm wrong? Cuz I'm under the impression that drugs are just for weak people who can't handle their lives, so they turn to drinkin and smokin crap to feel better? Or is it like a cool thing? They don't have enough self-esteem to feel good abouth themselves, so they think it's a mark of being cool. Let me tell you what, it isn't cool, and I think that people who have to do drugs to get away are dumb, because they don't know how to face their problems. I guess ultimately why I'm upset is because I let myself get so wrapped up in him, and hot my hopes up. I actually thought he was changing again, but I was VERY wrong. I'm still worried for him, cause if he keeps drinkin and smokin, he's gonna get hurt. I really enjoy the fact that he was freakin high when he drove over to Tess's house, but especially that he tried to get me to kiss him too. But...it's all okay, because after all, kissing Kelly isn't the same as kissing me? WTF mate? Whatever, all I have to say is that if he really cares about me he'll try to let me be happy instead of worrying about himself 24/7 and just leave me alone. It'd be so much easier then getting my heart stomped on repeated times. I'm out though, I just had to spill a little... lol I love you guys...sorry if u think I'm going like crazy. I'm not, I'm just a bit upset.
xoEricaox