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I over heard my parents talking about the politics of church and such. And I knew they knew I was listening so I wasnt worried about what I heard. My mom said this "church use to be a place where I could go and find refuge and be with people I love, but ever since the ministry and the politics of things, it's a struggle to find that, it's a job." I hate that for my parents.
I'm not being challenged in the right way and it kills me. I'm so tired of walking down the halls with these girls so concerned about their high-heels and which superlative they got. Or guys that are so busy checking out every female that walks by them. Then those that are still five years old and push each other into lockers and kick each other in the heels.
I'm wasting time, surely on nothing more than something required by law. If I see one more girl brushing their hair, touching their make-up excessively (not mere small glances<3) or trying so hard to look beautiful in the way society measures it i'm going to shoot myself. You think those issues arent real, think again my friend. More so real things like love, the imagination and creativity is so belittled, overused or completely ruined, now a days.
I feel out of wack at school and awkward, the only time I feel right is alone, walking around with friends outside of school or thinking/ doing something that matters.
Please, I'm tired of my life almost being forced to this tiny box. I want the whole box and what's outside of it, speaking spiritually and not so.
Let's not have things mundane.
I'm not being challenged in the right way and it kills me. I'm so tired of walking down the halls with these girls so concerned about their high-heels and which superlative they got. Or guys that are so busy checking out every female that walks by them. Then those that are still five years old and push each other into lockers and kick each other in the heels.
I'm wasting time, surely on nothing more than something required by law. If I see one more girl brushing their hair, touching their make-up excessively (not mere small glances<3) or trying so hard to look beautiful in the way society measures it i'm going to shoot myself. You think those issues arent real, think again my friend. More so real things like love, the imagination and creativity is so belittled, overused or completely ruined, now a days.
I feel out of wack at school and awkward, the only time I feel right is alone, walking around with friends outside of school or thinking/ doing something that matters.
Please, I'm tired of my life almost being forced to this tiny box. I want the whole box and what's outside of it, speaking spiritually and not so.
Let's not have things mundane.