fall in love and hold nothing back
words cant even explain how mixed up I am lately.
since last Wed i haven't been able to concentrate on anything. Wes came home last Wed from being in Florida for a week and decided he didn't want a relationship with me anymore. Where the hell that came from, dont ask me. and ya know its funny that he said its not "what he's looking for," yet he told me i am everything that he would want in a girl. give me frickn break. just be honest with me, thats all i want.
I just feel very lost lately. I can listen to any song that may be somewhat sad and i just start to cry. Why did he wait til he came back from Florida to tell me how he was feeling when he said he had been feeling that way for about 2 weeks before hand. Didn't he know that every single day I saw him during those 2 weeks I fell more in love him? He wasn't even thinking about my feelings, just hoping that his would pass without talking to me out everything. how selfish.
and now, get this... he ignores me. how typical. what a coward. I sent him 10 text messages in about a 2 day period. and when i finally got a response from him all it said was, "Im sorry, I never meant to hurt you. Wes." Well buddy, YOU DID! Now get over it, get over yourself and tell me what is really going on. Everything he is doing is just not like him, i know that.
And yah know what sucks about it all too? It happened one month before prom. We were already planning on going together, obviously. And honestly, I still want to go with him. I know he dumped me, i know he hurt me, but i can't ignore my feelings, and he's a good friend and still means a lot to me. Plus, I had a great time with him at Homecoming, and he's a great date.
I stayed home all day Saturday because I wasnt scheduled to work. I stayed home to work on homework. I got absolutely nothing done. 11 hrs of nothing. I would sit down and make myself write something on that piece of paper, and nothing came. I couldn't concentrate if i tried.
i cant stand the fact that he is ignoring me.
Senior exit presentation is done. thank god. Everyone is stressing for no big deal. I actually felt like it was a waste to put it all together. But whatever, whatever gets me to graduate sooner, or at all.
it's raining outside. if soccer practice gets canceled i will be extremely happy. i dont feel like doing anything.
i need to start tanning.
im white.
since last Wed i haven't been able to concentrate on anything. Wes came home last Wed from being in Florida for a week and decided he didn't want a relationship with me anymore. Where the hell that came from, dont ask me. and ya know its funny that he said its not "what he's looking for," yet he told me i am everything that he would want in a girl. give me frickn break. just be honest with me, thats all i want.
I just feel very lost lately. I can listen to any song that may be somewhat sad and i just start to cry. Why did he wait til he came back from Florida to tell me how he was feeling when he said he had been feeling that way for about 2 weeks before hand. Didn't he know that every single day I saw him during those 2 weeks I fell more in love him? He wasn't even thinking about my feelings, just hoping that his would pass without talking to me out everything. how selfish.
and now, get this... he ignores me. how typical. what a coward. I sent him 10 text messages in about a 2 day period. and when i finally got a response from him all it said was, "Im sorry, I never meant to hurt you. Wes." Well buddy, YOU DID! Now get over it, get over yourself and tell me what is really going on. Everything he is doing is just not like him, i know that.
And yah know what sucks about it all too? It happened one month before prom. We were already planning on going together, obviously. And honestly, I still want to go with him. I know he dumped me, i know he hurt me, but i can't ignore my feelings, and he's a good friend and still means a lot to me. Plus, I had a great time with him at Homecoming, and he's a great date.
I stayed home all day Saturday because I wasnt scheduled to work. I stayed home to work on homework. I got absolutely nothing done. 11 hrs of nothing. I would sit down and make myself write something on that piece of paper, and nothing came. I couldn't concentrate if i tried.
i cant stand the fact that he is ignoring me.
Senior exit presentation is done. thank god. Everyone is stressing for no big deal. I actually felt like it was a waste to put it all together. But whatever, whatever gets me to graduate sooner, or at all.
it's raining outside. if soccer practice gets canceled i will be extremely happy. i dont feel like doing anything.
i need to start tanning.
im white.