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Gully Appreciation Day # ...
Gully and I have been going out now for one and a half years, and living together for almost a year. That means that we have seen each other virtually every day for the past eighteen months. Yet I still find myself with tears in my eyes at the airport when I have to leave him. If you'd seen us then, you might think that we were never going to see each other again.
I was going away for one day.
And I think if it were anyone else, I would be embarassed of myself. But it's not that I can't do anything without him - I don't want to. I've probably said that about previous relationships, but this time it is different. I dislike even going to work during the day because I don't get to spend that time with him. Life seems so short, and I want to it loving him. Sometimes I find myself resenting "real life" for getting in the way.
It sounds lame when I say it I know. This is a pretty lame entry.
But I know that I am not lame because I don't need him. I can do everything by myself with minimal hassles, but when I do I know that things are not half as amazing as they could be with him there.
Anyone who knew me two years ago would probably not recognise me now. Me, the girl who was constantly fighting for and proud of her independence - I don't want it anymore. I no longer feel the urge to go out and "find myself", because he lets me be myself (bad or good) every day.
Gully and I have been going out now for one and a half years, and living together for almost a year. That means that we have seen each other virtually every day for the past eighteen months. Yet I still find myself with tears in my eyes at the airport when I have to leave him. If you'd seen us then, you might think that we were never going to see each other again.
I was going away for one day.
And I think if it were anyone else, I would be embarassed of myself. But it's not that I can't do anything without him - I don't want to. I've probably said that about previous relationships, but this time it is different. I dislike even going to work during the day because I don't get to spend that time with him. Life seems so short, and I want to it loving him. Sometimes I find myself resenting "real life" for getting in the way.
It sounds lame when I say it I know. This is a pretty lame entry.
But I know that I am not lame because I don't need him. I can do everything by myself with minimal hassles, but when I do I know that things are not half as amazing as they could be with him there.
Anyone who knew me two years ago would probably not recognise me now. Me, the girl who was constantly fighting for and proud of her independence - I don't want it anymore. I no longer feel the urge to go out and "find myself", because he lets me be myself (bad or good) every day.