I'm The New Cancer
so. life. umm. whats been happening? well school sucks. suckity suck sucks. except i got a 91 on my dbq & i am pumped pumped about that. basically, im one of my phases ( which i guess never really end so basically its just my life ) where certain people are driving me absolutely insane.. & im being really bitchy to them. & i am sorry for that. ive been sleeping really late too. today i got up at eight o clock. why is everyone going out with random 8th & 9th grade girls..? the point is, today here was my day. got up at 8. had severe contact issues, ending in me looking like i hadnt slept at all, red eyes & tear streaked face & whatnot. whatevs. didnt straighten my h air.. again. went to school. saw kevo! very happy. cornered with courtney & jana. i LOVE jana. went to history, got my test grade which was not good but got my dbq & was happy. went to study hall. um.. i hate study hall. except i talked to kaitlin for a long time which was weird but it was nice. & i talked to lindsey of course. i honestly like.. i dont even know what i would do without lindsey lately. " jesus christ. i really dont want reilly to come over here right now " & " jesus christ. i really want that chapstick before lindsey finishes her top lip " were basically the quotes of the day. umm. went to english. gross. i really hate that class sometimes. lunch/kelsey were fun though :) ive missed her. then last to gym.. id say the highlight of the day. we played volleyball. & i really enjoy my gym class as much as i complain about going there. i guess tim teague & i are friends now. which is pretty cool. he is fun. it makes me sad that i used to really hate him. onward.. running club. always a joy. seriously. i love it. i dont know how i functioned before cross country. then i got yelled at, came home, got yelled at, showered, ate dinner, did my homework, got yelled at, cried cause im emo, got on here, smiled because i love karen. & thus.. my day.
you know, sometimes i seriously seriously question how the hell i even have friends. i don't deserve them. i treat them like crap. why do they still like me? i guess if what rachel says is true, im basically.. an entertainer. & that makes me sad. i mean if people like that, thats great. but honestly. entertainers, my friends, get old fast. & i feel like ive said that sentence in my journal before. so deal with it. i just.. god. jana. jana is so good to me. & i am so awful to her. & i HATE IT! & i dont know why i do it! cause im a terrible person who is incapable at judging the emotional depth of situations! i just noticed my spacebar is abnormally big. which reminds me of the time my kindergarten teacher yelled at me cause i didnt know where the spacebar was. umm i was in kindergarten. evil lady. on with life.. so yeah. i think thats gonna be one of my new years resolutions.. to stop freaking being a BITCH & be nice to people.. cause im so evil. im such a terrible friend & im so sorry for that. so maybe ill change. i hope i will. until then.. bear with my complaining.
sometimes, parents just really make you want to eat your life, dont they?
you know, sometimes i seriously seriously question how the hell i even have friends. i don't deserve them. i treat them like crap. why do they still like me? i guess if what rachel says is true, im basically.. an entertainer. & that makes me sad. i mean if people like that, thats great. but honestly. entertainers, my friends, get old fast. & i feel like ive said that sentence in my journal before. so deal with it. i just.. god. jana. jana is so good to me. & i am so awful to her. & i HATE IT! & i dont know why i do it! cause im a terrible person who is incapable at judging the emotional depth of situations! i just noticed my spacebar is abnormally big. which reminds me of the time my kindergarten teacher yelled at me cause i didnt know where the spacebar was. umm i was in kindergarten. evil lady. on with life.. so yeah. i think thats gonna be one of my new years resolutions.. to stop freaking being a BITCH & be nice to people.. cause im so evil. im such a terrible friend & im so sorry for that. so maybe ill change. i hope i will. until then.. bear with my complaining.
sometimes, parents just really make you want to eat your life, dont they?