May 25, 2013 10:28
God damn I'm just feeling so empty and twisted and lonely right now. I've been cutting even more than usual this morning and I'm getting light headed. It's really beginning to make me feel high. Also I mugged a pill head. I don't know what kind of pills these are but I'm really fucking tripping balls. My hands are dry and scaly like an alligator. And the moon is inside my head instead of the sky. Or maybe my head IS the sky. Either way. I've been thinking about death a lot. And how depressed I've been. I don't cry because I don't show emotion but I hate everything and just hate myself and hate feeling all alone.
For once I'm really at a good place in my life. I really feel like I'm finally where I'm meant to be.