later that night
Fucking fuck. I was asleep and just fucking lying in a puddle of my own blood, feeling very close to death and a fucking bird flew into this fucking building I'm in and woke the shit up our of me. Now I feel so shitty and tired and half human just like I deserve to feel. I was just going to post this then roll over and go back to fucking unconsious sleep land, but I think i'm going to carve the word "APATHY" into my forearm.