BLACK SOULx
I havent written in a while. I dont know why just didnt fucking feel like it get off my back you fucking nig.
So two days ago (Thursday) I set the trashcan in the girls' bathroom on fire. Fucking hot shit. I jusst left it there, burning with a cup of gasoline and about a whole roll of toilet paper in there... I was hoping that maybe it would start a bigger fire, but there was another girl in the stall when I did it, and she ran out, screaming and told someone, who either put it out, or called someone to put it out (like th efucking fire men) so yeah, but still highlight of my fucking sorry ass day.
In gym class, the same day, Mr fucking Baechler told me that Id lose credit if I dont get in the pool sometime, because the only time I went in was that one time that I streaked to publicly humiliate myself and my fat, carved up body. So I was technically still supposed to be coming to detention with him too, but when he said that I spit in his face and said "FINE ILL FUCKING CONFORM TO YOUR AMERICAN DREAM!" and I stole a girls bathing suit, but all I could really get was the top, she ran offf screaming. I put on the top right in front of mr Baechfucker and the whole class could see my tits. Then he wouldnt let me swim he made me go to his office and he yelled at me. HEY Mr Baechler! Why not just fucking yell at me like a man, in front of everyone who was there?! Too chicken? Hiding something from someone? I thought/hoped secretly that he was gonna rape me. I would enjoy it and Id get to tell on him and get his sorry ass in trouble. But unfortunately, no matter how much I seduced him, he wouldnt.
Then yesterday I took a mental rest day. Thats what I told my fucking pathetic excuse for a mom. I just slept and slit all day. I smoked a few times, too.
And now Im here. Kinda boring week. I dont know what my plans are for today but Jose is definitely going to be in them.
So two days ago (Thursday) I set the trashcan in the girls' bathroom on fire. Fucking hot shit. I jusst left it there, burning with a cup of gasoline and about a whole roll of toilet paper in there... I was hoping that maybe it would start a bigger fire, but there was another girl in the stall when I did it, and she ran out, screaming and told someone, who either put it out, or called someone to put it out (like th efucking fire men) so yeah, but still highlight of my fucking sorry ass day.
In gym class, the same day, Mr fucking Baechler told me that Id lose credit if I dont get in the pool sometime, because the only time I went in was that one time that I streaked to publicly humiliate myself and my fat, carved up body. So I was technically still supposed to be coming to detention with him too, but when he said that I spit in his face and said "FINE ILL FUCKING CONFORM TO YOUR AMERICAN DREAM!" and I stole a girls bathing suit, but all I could really get was the top, she ran offf screaming. I put on the top right in front of mr Baechfucker and the whole class could see my tits. Then he wouldnt let me swim he made me go to his office and he yelled at me. HEY Mr Baechler! Why not just fucking yell at me like a man, in front of everyone who was there?! Too chicken? Hiding something from someone? I thought/hoped secretly that he was gonna rape me. I would enjoy it and Id get to tell on him and get his sorry ass in trouble. But unfortunately, no matter how much I seduced him, he wouldnt.
Then yesterday I took a mental rest day. Thats what I told my fucking pathetic excuse for a mom. I just slept and slit all day. I smoked a few times, too.
And now Im here. Kinda boring week. I dont know what my plans are for today but Jose is definitely going to be in them.