I was just thinking about you.....eat_bubblesSeptember 2 2005, 01:13:55 UTC
I was just online the other day and i was like what do i do on here?? i haden't been on in a while....but i remmebered you got me into live journal. I was just reading entries and shit and i thought i would write just because. I was just thinking that me and you never really got to talk about any thing that happened. Well i just want to let you know that i wish you would have came to me and talked to me about whatever was on your mind. I don't really know what to say to you...except that when i was upset it wasn't really so much about jen and chelsey... b/c before we were arguing they hadn't really tried too hard to be involved in my life. But you and Jamie on the other hand, i still talked to you and Jamie and me were close....well we're fine now. So that brings me to you. I guess i just don't understand what you were thinking when you deided to say those things about me...i just know that the one person who i have the biggest history with and i talked to about anyhting and everything, about our life dreams, about our childhood secrets that no one knows about, about how much we enjoy the real things in life that no one else really notice or care about, that great person who i loved so much and i stuck up for behind her back....stabbed me in the back that day and i didn't know what to do...but cry. i don't know if you were trying to make me feel alone or what...but you succeeded i have never felt more alone in my life. i still had peropl ou know by my side or whatever but i didn't have what i had before and that really got to me. I don't know how you feel.i guess i'd like to know...if its not to harsh....i would like to know the honest to God truth from you to me. i don't even know if you are going to read this..but if you do, i miss you a lot and good luck in whatever your doing right now and i love you very much! ~Kayla~
Re: I was just thinking about you.....lifecomesfirstSeptember 2 2005, 02:24:42 UTC
Kayla! Wow...
It's crazy that you message me, because I've been thinking about you so much lately. I say Samantha Roy at school and she told me you were staying with her, and my immediate response was to ask how you were. I miss you a lot. You have no idea. I htink about you almost every day. And even Hurricane Katrina has made me think about you because we went through a hurricane together.
I don't know what to say about what happened between us. The fight was so pety. I feel like an asshole because deep down I know it was all my fault. I mean true, you did do a lot of shit I didn't agree withfrom all that, you were my best friend. It killed me when you told me we had a fake friendship, because I thought it was the best one ever. I worry about you a lot because I don't want you to ruin your life. I've always been the mom of the group. I know it's not my decision what you do in life, but I always wanted you to have everything you wanted. I wanted us to go to Stetson together and I wanted us to have that apartment and join Spanish club together and cheer our senior year together. However, you have your own life and I feel like a jerk for trying to bring you to live mine. You're completely entitled to do whatever you want to do, and I have to respect that, even if I don't repect the decisions you make. In the end, you're still my Kayla Ann Reno and I honetsly love you as much as I did at the best time in our friendship. I miss you boo, and I'm sorry.
Re: I was just thinking about you.....eat_bubblesSeptember 7 2005, 03:33:05 UTC
Well...I'm definately glad we got this out in the open. I can totally understand you saying things out of being worried...we had a fight about it sophomore year in 7th period remember. Haha it was over that picture you drew of me...lol..omg that was so long ago. But anyway Hopey i will admit i have done some pretty fucked up things you know, i was partying too much, skipping all the time, slipping in school, you know to be completely honest with you i wish you would have called me more often to talk or just showed up at my house out of nowhere to hang out or you know something to pull me out of whatever i was doing. It's selfish of me to say that, i know....i should be that strong on my own....obviously i'm not or none of that shit would have happened. I don't know it makes me start thinking...but oh well.. And believe me i remember our plan to go to stetson and get and apartment together, that would have been awesome. well ill ttyl.
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It's crazy that you message me, because I've been thinking about you so much lately. I say Samantha Roy at school and she told me you were staying with her, and my immediate response was to ask how you were. I miss you a lot. You have no idea. I htink about you almost every day. And even Hurricane Katrina has made me think about you because we went through a hurricane together.
I don't know what to say about what happened between us. The fight was so pety. I feel like an asshole because deep down I know it was all my fault. I mean true, you did do a lot of shit I didn't agree withfrom all that, you were my best friend. It killed me when you told me we had a fake friendship, because I thought it was the best one ever. I worry about you a lot because I don't want you to ruin your life. I've always been the mom of the group. I know it's not my decision what you do in life, but I always wanted you to have everything you wanted. I wanted us to go to Stetson together and I wanted us to have that apartment and join Spanish club together and cheer our senior year together. However, you have your own life and I feel like a jerk for trying to bring you to live mine. You're completely entitled to do whatever you want to do, and I have to respect that, even if I don't repect the decisions you make. In the end, you're still my Kayla Ann Reno and I honetsly love you as much as I did at the best time in our friendship. I miss you boo, and I'm sorry.
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