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I'm so scared and its cuz i've been thinking a lot. I fear that i'm going to be just like my father. A worhtless nobody. Wait i'm already that! I fear that i'm going to die young and alone just like him. My mom said that i'm turning into him day by day. That scares me. She said he had no time for friends or family, just drugs(only mine is work and school). From what i hear about him i am like him. Some parts good others bad. I dont want to be like my dad. I always want to be loved and have someone around. My dad didnt even get to see his kids cuz he knew he wasnt good enough. I need to stop being so hard on myself but i cant. I'm so sad right now and really have no idea why. I really need to get out of the house or talk to someone for hours. That use to help me but the person i use to talk on the phone for hours with, i dont talk to them anymore. I get off at 10:00 tonite and if any of you want you can call me. Dont be suprise if i cry. Thats all i seem to do today! I love you! Comment if you care!