Trapped inside myself
Today started out horribly. I went to sleep at like...2ish and I had to get up at 8 for church...augh and I keep getting revamps of my sickness...ew...I still feel guilty about him. eewewewewewewewewe....
Despite the nausea and insane headache, church was amazing as usual and I felt a sense of peace. My family went to Cape Florida and from the top of the lighthouse I saw a manta ray jump from the water. God speaks in mysterious ways. I think my nickname should be Snow White because there are always animals around whenever I'm about in the world. God is an awesome God!!!
I like this song! It says a lot about how I feel.
"I don't think you notice, when you see my face
I guess you're waiting to spin me around again
Wheels I guess are turning, somewhere inside my head
I know that this is deeper than you get
But you're coming back again
You don't mean to waste my time
But you're coming back so...
Don't tell me how to be cause I like some suffering
Don't ask me what I need I'm doing fine, yeah finding me
I'm already givin' up on getting through
I never question who I'm talking to
So much for nothing but nothing means so much
I know it's touching but I've been out of touch
And it's all that I can do
I'm a sight for my sore eyes
But it's all I am so...
Don't tell me how to be cause I like some suffering
Don't ask me what I need, I'm just fine finding me
Finding me!
I don't think you notice when I can't reach out
I guess you're waiting for someone else again
So much for talking, it's all been said before
I'm hearing something but I wish you'd just say more
But you're going off again when I try to just hold on
But you're going off so...
Don't tell me how to be cause I like some suffering
Don't ask me what I need, I'm just fine, yeah finding me"
- V.H.
So many times I find myself searching for how I'm feeling in songs. Maybe I should look in the Bible. Peace to all!