Magic Mountain fun(?)
My name is Joseph Masarsky. I am 17. I am not the hottest guy. I am not the smartest. I'm not the most athletic. I'm not the best singer. I'm not the best actor. I'm not best at comebacks. I'm me. Joseph Masarsky.
As usual that is never good enough now is it?
Bree (It is spelled Bree) went to the six flags. It was fun minus the long lines, her complaining that about 4 rides she hates because they squish her boobs, and her texting someone every 3 minutes.
We did get some talking in but what made me jealous is this:
Were waiting on Goliath and there are these two guys next to us and I hear them start talking about guns and Bree was texting so I butted in. My big mouth always gets me into trouble. So I start talking with them and I learn that their entire talk about guns is a guy metaphor (which I figured anyway).
They start talking to Bree and Bree gets chummy with one of them. So we ride the ride and afterwards they gotta go home becuase they live in San Diego (there like 19. She asks him for his number. She's known this guy for 20 minutes and she's got the super hots for him and heres me you know the dude who's taking her and paying for formal. And paid for lunch. And the movie you went too! But no you just see me as a friend. SO I'm jealous and pissed off (but the guy, named Eric had a gf hahahahahaha) so me and her go on the marry go-round and she's texting yet again because if she doesn't she'll die!
And then she's like I'm gonna go ride the horsey! and I'm like well I'll be back I'm gonna go ride Viper!
Bree:Are you serious?
Joseph:Yeah I'll be back
Bree:Ok I'll be waiting here.
Joseph:Well it doesn't matter if you leave cuz...I'm your ride home (storms off to ride viper)
This is a half hour before park closes.
I come back 5 min later and we talk I tell her that I wanted it to be more then friends and she apologizes that she doesn't feel that way (And know seeing how she didn't want to jump into my pants within the first 10 min of meeting me she never did and never will) and I tell that I feel like she just sees me as the dope who was willing to pay her way into formal. She says no that she enjoys being with me as friend. What I didn't get to say is this.
I have two best female friends, their names are Jen Narbonne and Ashley Huggs. I don't need a friend I need a gf.
But I calmed down. I relaxed and I went back to normal cool(?) mode. We talked in the car and I told her that its ok she doesn't like me, I just got jealous that she would be so openly flirty in front of me.
There were some good parts tot he six flags part of today.
Lots of pictures. Hanging out with Bree. And the conversations.
I decided I want the last 12 years of my life back I know how to fix them let all this be a dream. But the way I changed it, I might have never met many of you, which would make me sad, knowing all this stuff about you but because I changed things I never met you, but I have memories of hanging out with you guys.
That would be creepy.
ehh I do like how I turn out its just things like this make me look in the mirror and hate me.
emo moment: I feel like the person i am is not the person I see in the mirror.
ok I gotta stop having those stupid emo moments.
Well after formal I'll probably just not talk to Bree or IDK I'll deal with that when it comes. I'm tired
and sleepy
good night
As usual that is never good enough now is it?
Bree (It is spelled Bree) went to the six flags. It was fun minus the long lines, her complaining that about 4 rides she hates because they squish her boobs, and her texting someone every 3 minutes.
We did get some talking in but what made me jealous is this:
Were waiting on Goliath and there are these two guys next to us and I hear them start talking about guns and Bree was texting so I butted in. My big mouth always gets me into trouble. So I start talking with them and I learn that their entire talk about guns is a guy metaphor (which I figured anyway).
They start talking to Bree and Bree gets chummy with one of them. So we ride the ride and afterwards they gotta go home becuase they live in San Diego (there like 19. She asks him for his number. She's known this guy for 20 minutes and she's got the super hots for him and heres me you know the dude who's taking her and paying for formal. And paid for lunch. And the movie you went too! But no you just see me as a friend. SO I'm jealous and pissed off (but the guy, named Eric had a gf hahahahahaha) so me and her go on the marry go-round and she's texting yet again because if she doesn't she'll die!
And then she's like I'm gonna go ride the horsey! and I'm like well I'll be back I'm gonna go ride Viper!
Bree:Are you serious?
Joseph:Yeah I'll be back
Bree:Ok I'll be waiting here.
Joseph:Well it doesn't matter if you leave cuz...I'm your ride home (storms off to ride viper)
This is a half hour before park closes.
I come back 5 min later and we talk I tell her that I wanted it to be more then friends and she apologizes that she doesn't feel that way (And know seeing how she didn't want to jump into my pants within the first 10 min of meeting me she never did and never will) and I tell that I feel like she just sees me as the dope who was willing to pay her way into formal. She says no that she enjoys being with me as friend. What I didn't get to say is this.
I have two best female friends, their names are Jen Narbonne and Ashley Huggs. I don't need a friend I need a gf.
But I calmed down. I relaxed and I went back to normal cool(?) mode. We talked in the car and I told her that its ok she doesn't like me, I just got jealous that she would be so openly flirty in front of me.
There were some good parts tot he six flags part of today.
Lots of pictures. Hanging out with Bree. And the conversations.
I decided I want the last 12 years of my life back I know how to fix them let all this be a dream. But the way I changed it, I might have never met many of you, which would make me sad, knowing all this stuff about you but because I changed things I never met you, but I have memories of hanging out with you guys.
That would be creepy.
ehh I do like how I turn out its just things like this make me look in the mirror and hate me.
emo moment: I feel like the person i am is not the person I see in the mirror.
ok I gotta stop having those stupid emo moments.
Well after formal I'll probably just not talk to Bree or IDK I'll deal with that when it comes. I'm tired
and sleepy
good night