neglagence
so i think i have neglected writing in this for a couple of days...oops.
latley i have been told a lot of stuff [about me] that i do. so i guess that i put up a high bar for those to be a part of my life. for instance my bf [boyfriend]. i have been told that i have a big chain on him. that i hold really high expectations & standards for him. and it is hard for him to do anything. also that i dont give him enough room to breath. [keep in mind that i am more than pissed hearing this] so this person pretty much goes on to tell me this and asks me what kind of person am i to do that. This made me madder than ever but it hurt me at the same time because i wasnt sure if this was true. so i asked n it wasnt. he said that i am a very fair person. that i dont have a chain around him and i let him do anythings. he said that we try to make everything 50/50. and said that that person was just pissed because i kept him and others [including other girl's bf's] from looking at somegirls boobs infront of everyone. which brings me to another topic. i have been told that i am kind of like a mom. sometimes a little to much and i apologize for that [ you know who you are] i dont mean to i just care for poeple a lil too much i guess. and sometimes i need to just be a friend. and other times people love it. but back againt to the topice above... i may have high expectations for someone i want to be with. but in my mind that is not wrong. if that is what makes me happy and if that is what i want in a bf or whatever it is ok. if i set them too high for a 'guy' that i have dated and it didnt work out that is because it wasnt ment to be. we are different. but if you agree with the standards and expecations that i do then it works. [if i am making sense] i am happy becuase it works perfect with my bf and we both set high standards for each other. and it works great. it helps ou relationship in many ways. and in good ways at that.
whew....
i have been haveing interesting, sad and really funny dreams latley. so i am going to buy a journal to write them in and it will be right next to my bed. along with that my mind had been driving me CRAZY. too many thoughs...lol that is life though!
things have happend latley that i would like to change... and yet again i dont want to.
i find you facinating and intreging. your work is amazing and intellectual.
i am learning from you and at the same time you are learning from me.
our friendship is unusual and fun
thank you, you make me think
it is kinda nice
;)
latley i have been told a lot of stuff [about me] that i do. so i guess that i put up a high bar for those to be a part of my life. for instance my bf [boyfriend]. i have been told that i have a big chain on him. that i hold really high expectations & standards for him. and it is hard for him to do anything. also that i dont give him enough room to breath. [keep in mind that i am more than pissed hearing this] so this person pretty much goes on to tell me this and asks me what kind of person am i to do that. This made me madder than ever but it hurt me at the same time because i wasnt sure if this was true. so i asked n it wasnt. he said that i am a very fair person. that i dont have a chain around him and i let him do anythings. he said that we try to make everything 50/50. and said that that person was just pissed because i kept him and others [including other girl's bf's] from looking at somegirls boobs infront of everyone. which brings me to another topic. i have been told that i am kind of like a mom. sometimes a little to much and i apologize for that [ you know who you are] i dont mean to i just care for poeple a lil too much i guess. and sometimes i need to just be a friend. and other times people love it. but back againt to the topice above... i may have high expectations for someone i want to be with. but in my mind that is not wrong. if that is what makes me happy and if that is what i want in a bf or whatever it is ok. if i set them too high for a 'guy' that i have dated and it didnt work out that is because it wasnt ment to be. we are different. but if you agree with the standards and expecations that i do then it works. [if i am making sense] i am happy becuase it works perfect with my bf and we both set high standards for each other. and it works great. it helps ou relationship in many ways. and in good ways at that.
whew....
i have been haveing interesting, sad and really funny dreams latley. so i am going to buy a journal to write them in and it will be right next to my bed. along with that my mind had been driving me CRAZY. too many thoughs...lol that is life though!
things have happend latley that i would like to change... and yet again i dont want to.
i find you facinating and intreging. your work is amazing and intellectual.
i am learning from you and at the same time you are learning from me.
our friendship is unusual and fun
thank you, you make me think
it is kinda nice
;)