i am a believer
yeah i don't feel all that great today...
um got home last nite and my 'rents wouldn't speak to me...sooo,..... yeah
i still gotta tell my mom about my meeting saturday and the gifts...but that can wait til tonite...
i have a major head ache right now...
i'm curious...am i going to hell?? i mean really think about it...i've broken fast so many times...and i say bad words...i talk about ppl...i don't go to church or mosque...so by most standards i am going to hell...also i'm not goin the best i can...i'm just doin what i feel like doin...what's in my heart and mind...is that wrong..is listening to God given organs a sin?? Is it a sin to go against everything ppl have been telling you just for the sake of you and finding what makes you happy and what fits your life and what you feel and think??
i'm completely comfused...i believe in God...i pray everynight...and i try my best to be a good person...but is that enough...is that enough to be insure a place in heaven...am i in the same boat as those who are homosexual?? am i doomed to damnation simply becuase some where in a holy book...because i choose to follow my heart...but i isn't it true...you ppl that will say..yeah your going to hell...that "God has a plan for everyone and you should follow God's will and God made you the way you are and you are that way for that reason and HIS reasons alone" well if you say that and then you say i....a good person to everyone that knows me...that i'm going to hell simply becuase i choose not to adhere to any specific religion?? Is it really my choice?? Is it really your place to tell me what i can and can not do?? Should i put restrictions on myself just for the satifaction of some on else, INTERPRETING God's words...why can't i just practice my own from of religion. Isn't the basis of most religions faith??
I do and always have had a faith in God and all of his miracles...he made me that way I am...and i'm tired of ppl trying to tell me otherwise. God made them they way they are and there purpose is to tell me, and my purpose is to listen and absorb..not necessarily convert. ugh...i'm so confused...i don't want to go to hell...but i don't think being a bible thumping Christian or a Jew or a devout Muslim is change who i am. I have given myself to God...i say that for the record...my future is in his hands..and if i shall die sometime soon for what ever reason...then i will die...
i am not afriad of death...i'm not afraid of tomorrow...simply becuase i have faith...i am not christian, muslim, atheistic, or agnostic... I am a believer and that should be all that matters....
right??
um got home last nite and my 'rents wouldn't speak to me...sooo,..... yeah
i still gotta tell my mom about my meeting saturday and the gifts...but that can wait til tonite...
i have a major head ache right now...
i'm curious...am i going to hell?? i mean really think about it...i've broken fast so many times...and i say bad words...i talk about ppl...i don't go to church or mosque...so by most standards i am going to hell...also i'm not goin the best i can...i'm just doin what i feel like doin...what's in my heart and mind...is that wrong..is listening to God given organs a sin?? Is it a sin to go against everything ppl have been telling you just for the sake of you and finding what makes you happy and what fits your life and what you feel and think??
i'm completely comfused...i believe in God...i pray everynight...and i try my best to be a good person...but is that enough...is that enough to be insure a place in heaven...am i in the same boat as those who are homosexual?? am i doomed to damnation simply becuase some where in a holy book...because i choose to follow my heart...but i isn't it true...you ppl that will say..yeah your going to hell...that "God has a plan for everyone and you should follow God's will and God made you the way you are and you are that way for that reason and HIS reasons alone" well if you say that and then you say i....a good person to everyone that knows me...that i'm going to hell simply becuase i choose not to adhere to any specific religion?? Is it really my choice?? Is it really your place to tell me what i can and can not do?? Should i put restrictions on myself just for the satifaction of some on else, INTERPRETING God's words...why can't i just practice my own from of religion. Isn't the basis of most religions faith??
I do and always have had a faith in God and all of his miracles...he made me that way I am...and i'm tired of ppl trying to tell me otherwise. God made them they way they are and there purpose is to tell me, and my purpose is to listen and absorb..not necessarily convert. ugh...i'm so confused...i don't want to go to hell...but i don't think being a bible thumping Christian or a Jew or a devout Muslim is change who i am. I have given myself to God...i say that for the record...my future is in his hands..and if i shall die sometime soon for what ever reason...then i will die...
i am not afriad of death...i'm not afraid of tomorrow...simply becuase i have faith...i am not christian, muslim, atheistic, or agnostic... I am a believer and that should be all that matters....
right??