I Had A Belife... It Got Destroyed And I Became The Ultimate Pragmatist Why Am I Feeling The Need...
I Believed In God Once Upon A Time...
U Know, Ur A Kid... U ALWAYS Felt Gods Pressence. I Went Thru A Rough Time...
Then I Questioned Gods Exsistence... Was There Really A God.. The Ultimate Being Watching Over Me?
I Was Losing My Faith Slowly... It Was Fading Outta Me And My Candle Was Burning Out. Soon... It Hit Me... I Dont Believe
This Past Year, I Tried Forgetting About Myself, My Needs... My Desires... I Dont Need Those... They Destroyed Meh... But I Thought About Everyone Who Stood By My Side And Made Me Hold On. Thats When I Decided... Gods Not there... Ppl Are There. I Kept Trying To Forgt Wat I Needed... Wat I Wanted... And I Became The Ultimate Pragmatist. I Was Only Concerned Wth Facts And Logic... Forget Belife. But Deep Inside Myself... I Always Questioned Whether Or Not I Made The Right Choice... But I Stuck To My Decision. I Spent The Rest Of My Time Helping Others And 4getting About Me... Everyone Needs Came First And If A "Super Being" Wasnt Gonna Help Them From A Lack Of Exsistence... Y Couldent I Give It All Away To Them? Im Real...
Of Course I Kept It To Myself... Acting Greedy Around ppl... And Finally I Share Wat I Thought... Everything
A Couple Of Days Ago... Just Recently... After I Opened Up... I Felt Weird... Like If I WAS Being Watched Over... But Not By NE 1 I Knew... It Was Something Divine.... An Old Warm Pressence I Guess... Next Thing I Know, I Recieved A Movie About Angels From One Person... Another Gives Me Song About Angels Jelouse Of Humans And Im All... "Ok..... Why Am I Being Hit With All This"
Suddenly... I Think I Made A Wrong Choice... Maybe Pragmatic Ideas Wernt The Best.... But I Dont Believe... I Dont Question...
I Went From Being A Believer... To Being The ULTIMATE Pragmatist... Why All Of A Sudden... Im Feeling he Need To Be An Idealist... To Open My Mind Up To What Could Be Pst All The Logic I Know. I Dont Like It
I LOVE BEING PRAGMATIC! My Life Became So Much Simpler To Get, To Live... There Was Always Something To Help Me Get Around Not To Mention It Tought Me How To Become Stronger In Life And To Enjoy It More :) But Whats Up With This... Maybe Its Just My Cincience Asking Me A Final Time If I Made The Right Belief...
Im Certain... But Im Still Young... My Belief Will Be Altered. I Know I Wont Fully Understand The Way I Think... Ever. I Have A Dark Mind And I Close Up... And I Dont Understand The Choices I Make Bu At The Time They'll Feel Right...
I Need To Focus More On This Topc...
I Believed In God Once Upon A Time...
U Know, Ur A Kid... U ALWAYS Felt Gods Pressence. I Went Thru A Rough Time...
Then I Questioned Gods Exsistence... Was There Really A God.. The Ultimate Being Watching Over Me?
I Was Losing My Faith Slowly... It Was Fading Outta Me And My Candle Was Burning Out. Soon... It Hit Me... I Dont Believe
This Past Year, I Tried Forgetting About Myself, My Needs... My Desires... I Dont Need Those... They Destroyed Meh... But I Thought About Everyone Who Stood By My Side And Made Me Hold On. Thats When I Decided... Gods Not there... Ppl Are There. I Kept Trying To Forgt Wat I Needed... Wat I Wanted... And I Became The Ultimate Pragmatist. I Was Only Concerned Wth Facts And Logic... Forget Belife. But Deep Inside Myself... I Always Questioned Whether Or Not I Made The Right Choice... But I Stuck To My Decision. I Spent The Rest Of My Time Helping Others And 4getting About Me... Everyone Needs Came First And If A "Super Being" Wasnt Gonna Help Them From A Lack Of Exsistence... Y Couldent I Give It All Away To Them? Im Real...
Of Course I Kept It To Myself... Acting Greedy Around ppl... And Finally I Share Wat I Thought... Everything
A Couple Of Days Ago... Just Recently... After I Opened Up... I Felt Weird... Like If I WAS Being Watched Over... But Not By NE 1 I Knew... It Was Something Divine.... An Old Warm Pressence I Guess... Next Thing I Know, I Recieved A Movie About Angels From One Person... Another Gives Me Song About Angels Jelouse Of Humans And Im All... "Ok..... Why Am I Being Hit With All This"
Suddenly... I Think I Made A Wrong Choice... Maybe Pragmatic Ideas Wernt The Best.... But I Dont Believe... I Dont Question...
I Went From Being A Believer... To Being The ULTIMATE Pragmatist... Why All Of A Sudden... Im Feeling he Need To Be An Idealist... To Open My Mind Up To What Could Be Pst All The Logic I Know. I Dont Like It
I LOVE BEING PRAGMATIC! My Life Became So Much Simpler To Get, To Live... There Was Always Something To Help Me Get Around Not To Mention It Tought Me How To Become Stronger In Life And To Enjoy It More :) But Whats Up With This... Maybe Its Just My Cincience Asking Me A Final Time If I Made The Right Belief...
Im Certain... But Im Still Young... My Belief Will Be Altered. I Know I Wont Fully Understand The Way I Think... Ever. I Have A Dark Mind And I Close Up... And I Dont Understand The Choices I Make Bu At The Time They'll Feel Right...
I Need To Focus More On This Topc...
I Do Not Believe In Anygods, Including The One Everyone Here Believes In. I Do Not Believe There Is A Higher Being Or One Below For That Fact. I Mean, I Dont Think The "Devil" Is Trying To Interfere... I Think The Only Devil That Exsist Is The Demon Within Ourselves. The One We Create That Brings Out Violence. Well, U Cannot Have Evil W/o No Good. They Are Symbionts With Each Other, Or Lifeforms Living With Each Other For Mutual Advantage. So If U See The Demon In U, U Must See Good In You So If U Create A Devil, U Must See A God, A Superior Being To Help You Thru Hard Times. Thats All I Think It Is, U Create Something So U Can Cope With Pain And Hardship. Tho I See It As An Illusion To Cope With And Do Not Believe, I Dont Argue Anymore W/ All Those That Believe.
Cuz Think About It, If U Got The Majority Of People Not To Believe. The World Would Be In Chaos. No One Would Be Following he Order We Live In. They All Need Something To Believe In So They feel They Are Not Alone... U Know Wen Ur Lonely And U Just Dont Give A Flying Rats Ass Ne More? Think Of The Whole World Was Like That With Nothing To Believe In. Humanity Would Be Destroyed.
So, Even Tho I Dont Believe Anymore, I Still Think Its Good That Others Like To Believe. It Gives The World Hope For Us, Our Future. Me, On The Other Hand, Well Everyone Looks Up To Their God Or Gods, I Have My Head Foward Here On Earth. I Think If U Die,the Only Place U Go Is 6 Feet Under. Like John Lennon Said, "No Heaven Or Hell. Ubove Us Only Sky." I Dont Think Things Happen For A Reason Anymore. I Just Learn To Live By The Moment And Deal With Them When They Happen. Life Is The Most Perfect Thing And Is Great As Long As Ur Not Getting Injured By Force... Ur Learn To Be Self Happy. Just Live Free... And By The Moment.
I Mean There Are Times I Feel Like Life Sux, But Thats Cuz I Start To Question My Thinking... If I Really Chose The Right Path.. Not Believing U Know. Than I Hit A Hard Depression But Ppl Always Pull Me Back On My Feet And I Start Being A Wonderful Care Free Soul Again..., But The Depressions Eased Down Alot Which Means Everthing I Am Still Teaching Myself Is Good For Me. I Dont Know If I Would Recommend This Path For Anyone Tho. There Is A Bad Side..
U Start Seeing The World Different. Its Beautiful In Ur Eyes Yes, But... U Start Seeing Things Different From Everyone. Ur Type Of Pain Is Diff. From Everyone Else, Including The Way U See Things, The Way U Feel Them, Everything. U Feel Seperated From The World Like Ur Already Doomed. U Become A Bit More Self~less And Sometimes Forget About Urself Completly. All U Worry About Is Helping Others Outta Their Dilema. And U Dont Wanna Rest Till They Can At Peace. But There Are Like These Rules Tho. To Help, U Cant Bring Ur Belifes In OR Take Theirs Out. U Have To Understand The Way They Feel and Believe And Help Them Using That. If They Believe In God, Than U Let Them Know He Cares For Them Even Tho U Dont Really Believe. It Gets Kinda Hard But After A While U Get To Learn To Live With It.
I Dont Regret The Path I Chose Tho. Im Happy :)
Kinda Made My Own Religion After Hearing Different Ppl's Views I Guess. I Mean U Cant Start Something If U Dont Know Wat Ur Talking About. U Have To Understand Everyone Elses Point Of Veiw. U Cant Just Wake Up One Day And Say "I Dont Believe" And Not Have A reason. Its... Non-humane. U Have To Know Wat Ur Talking About And I Know Enough From Everything Else I Learned About Religion And Life To Know This Is Wat I Believe.
But Like I Said, I Really Dont Encourage Ppl To Try This Life... It Their Choice Tho. If U Do And Start Seeing This Way... I Dont Think Ull Be As Normal As U Once Were And I See No Way Outta It. I Feel Its Like Once U Choose This Life Ur Stuck Here. I Really Dont C How U Can Go Back To The Way U Were. But Its Not That Bad Either. I Perfer This Tho
ts Becuz I Started Believing This Way, I Continued My Poetry Really. At First It Was All My Hate Then I Wrote Just 4 Others Now Its Both I Write For. But I Have To Know Wat Im Talkin About B4 Writing 4 Someone Else Lol. Ya, But Thats Really My Belief. I Mean, Dont Get Me Wrong... Ive Takin My First Holy Communion And Im On My Last Year Of Confirmation With The Catholic Religion And All. But I Do It 4 2 Reasons.
One Is To Understand More Of Wat They Are Teaching Everyone. So I Can Come To Understand More Of Wat They Preach And How They Feel. Its Quite Intresting Really. I Mean, The More I Listened, The Less I Believed Which Was Funny Really. I Mean They Preach To U To Get U To Follow, Yet The More I Listend... I Pushed It Away. I Went From Circling My Life Around God And Being Closed Minded To Opening My Mind And Reading Inbetween The Lines. The More I Heard, The More I Saw Them Contradicting Themselves On So Many Levals. Its Really Entertaining To See Ppl Being Dragged Towards It. I Even Took Over Some Other Guys Assignment To Learn More. He Had To Do An Essay On Religion Vs. Evolution And I Did It To Learn Both Views. That Was The Most Entertaing Topic Ive Done
So Ya, Reason One For The Classes Was Learning. The Second Reason Was Just In Case I Married A Catholic Girl Who Wanted To Get Married In A Church, I Wouldent Be Holing Her Back Cuz I Already Took My Classes.
And Thats Where I Would Say My Beliefs Stop.... So Far I Guess..
U Know, Ur A Kid... U ALWAYS Felt Gods Pressence. I Went Thru A Rough Time...
Then I Questioned Gods Exsistence... Was There Really A God.. The Ultimate Being Watching Over Me?
I Was Losing My Faith Slowly... It Was Fading Outta Me And My Candle Was Burning Out. Soon... It Hit Me... I Dont Believe
This Past Year, I Tried Forgetting About Myself, My Needs... My Desires... I Dont Need Those... They Destroyed Meh... But I Thought About Everyone Who Stood By My Side And Made Me Hold On. Thats When I Decided... Gods Not there... Ppl Are There. I Kept Trying To Forgt Wat I Needed... Wat I Wanted... And I Became The Ultimate Pragmatist. I Was Only Concerned Wth Facts And Logic... Forget Belife. But Deep Inside Myself... I Always Questioned Whether Or Not I Made The Right Choice... But I Stuck To My Decision. I Spent The Rest Of My Time Helping Others And 4getting About Me... Everyone Needs Came First And If A "Super Being" Wasnt Gonna Help Them From A Lack Of Exsistence... Y Couldent I Give It All Away To Them? Im Real...
Of Course I Kept It To Myself... Acting Greedy Around ppl... And Finally I Share Wat I Thought... Everything
A Couple Of Days Ago... Just Recently... After I Opened Up... I Felt Weird... Like If I WAS Being Watched Over... But Not By NE 1 I Knew... It Was Something Divine.... An Old Warm Pressence I Guess... Next Thing I Know, I Recieved A Movie About Angels From One Person... Another Gives Me Song About Angels Jelouse Of Humans And Im All... "Ok..... Why Am I Being Hit With All This"
Suddenly... I Think I Made A Wrong Choice... Maybe Pragmatic Ideas Wernt The Best.... But I Dont Believe... I Dont Question...
I Went From Being A Believer... To Being The ULTIMATE Pragmatist... Why All Of A Sudden... Im Feeling he Need To Be An Idealist... To Open My Mind Up To What Could Be Pst All The Logic I Know. I Dont Like It
I LOVE BEING PRAGMATIC! My Life Became So Much Simpler To Get, To Live... There Was Always Something To Help Me Get Around Not To Mention It Tought Me How To Become Stronger In Life And To Enjoy It More :) But Whats Up With This... Maybe Its Just My Cincience Asking Me A Final Time If I Made The Right Belief...
Im Certain... But Im Still Young... My Belief Will Be Altered. I Know I Wont Fully Understand The Way I Think... Ever. I Have A Dark Mind And I Close Up... And I Dont Understand The Choices I Make Bu At The Time They'll Feel Right...
I Need To Focus More On This Topc...
I Believed In God Once Upon A Time...
U Know, Ur A Kid... U ALWAYS Felt Gods Pressence. I Went Thru A Rough Time...
Then I Questioned Gods Exsistence... Was There Really A God.. The Ultimate Being Watching Over Me?
I Was Losing My Faith Slowly... It Was Fading Outta Me And My Candle Was Burning Out. Soon... It Hit Me... I Dont Believe
This Past Year, I Tried Forgetting About Myself, My Needs... My Desires... I Dont Need Those... They Destroyed Meh... But I Thought About Everyone Who Stood By My Side And Made Me Hold On. Thats When I Decided... Gods Not there... Ppl Are There. I Kept Trying To Forgt Wat I Needed... Wat I Wanted... And I Became The Ultimate Pragmatist. I Was Only Concerned Wth Facts And Logic... Forget Belife. But Deep Inside Myself... I Always Questioned Whether Or Not I Made The Right Choice... But I Stuck To My Decision. I Spent The Rest Of My Time Helping Others And 4getting About Me... Everyone Needs Came First And If A "Super Being" Wasnt Gonna Help Them From A Lack Of Exsistence... Y Couldent I Give It All Away To Them? Im Real...
Of Course I Kept It To Myself... Acting Greedy Around ppl... And Finally I Share Wat I Thought... Everything
A Couple Of Days Ago... Just Recently... After I Opened Up... I Felt Weird... Like If I WAS Being Watched Over... But Not By NE 1 I Knew... It Was Something Divine.... An Old Warm Pressence I Guess... Next Thing I Know, I Recieved A Movie About Angels From One Person... Another Gives Me Song About Angels Jelouse Of Humans And Im All... "Ok..... Why Am I Being Hit With All This"
Suddenly... I Think I Made A Wrong Choice... Maybe Pragmatic Ideas Wernt The Best.... But I Dont Believe... I Dont Question...
I Went From Being A Believer... To Being The ULTIMATE Pragmatist... Why All Of A Sudden... Im Feeling he Need To Be An Idealist... To Open My Mind Up To What Could Be Pst All The Logic I Know. I Dont Like It
I LOVE BEING PRAGMATIC! My Life Became So Much Simpler To Get, To Live... There Was Always Something To Help Me Get Around Not To Mention It Tought Me How To Become Stronger In Life And To Enjoy It More :) But Whats Up With This... Maybe Its Just My Cincience Asking Me A Final Time If I Made The Right Belief...
Im Certain... But Im Still Young... My Belief Will Be Altered. I Know I Wont Fully Understand The Way I Think... Ever. I Have A Dark Mind And I Close Up... And I Dont Understand The Choices I Make Bu At The Time They'll Feel Right...
I Need To Focus More On This Topc...
I Do Not Believe In Anygods, Including The One Everyone Here Believes In. I Do Not Believe There Is A Higher Being Or One Below For That Fact. I Mean, I Dont Think The "Devil" Is Trying To Interfere... I Think The Only Devil That Exsist Is The Demon Within Ourselves. The One We Create That Brings Out Violence. Well, U Cannot Have Evil W/o No Good. They Are Symbionts With Each Other, Or Lifeforms Living With Each Other For Mutual Advantage. So If U See The Demon In U, U Must See Good In You So If U Create A Devil, U Must See A God, A Superior Being To Help You Thru Hard Times. Thats All I Think It Is, U Create Something So U Can Cope With Pain And Hardship. Tho I See It As An Illusion To Cope With And Do Not Believe, I Dont Argue Anymore W/ All Those That Believe.
Cuz Think About It, If U Got The Majority Of People Not To Believe. The World Would Be In Chaos. No One Would Be Following he Order We Live In. They All Need Something To Believe In So They feel They Are Not Alone... U Know Wen Ur Lonely And U Just Dont Give A Flying Rats Ass Ne More? Think Of The Whole World Was Like That With Nothing To Believe In. Humanity Would Be Destroyed.
So, Even Tho I Dont Believe Anymore, I Still Think Its Good That Others Like To Believe. It Gives The World Hope For Us, Our Future. Me, On The Other Hand, Well Everyone Looks Up To Their God Or Gods, I Have My Head Foward Here On Earth. I Think If U Die,the Only Place U Go Is 6 Feet Under. Like John Lennon Said, "No Heaven Or Hell. Ubove Us Only Sky." I Dont Think Things Happen For A Reason Anymore. I Just Learn To Live By The Moment And Deal With Them When They Happen. Life Is The Most Perfect Thing And Is Great As Long As Ur Not Getting Injured By Force... Ur Learn To Be Self Happy. Just Live Free... And By The Moment.
I Mean There Are Times I Feel Like Life Sux, But Thats Cuz I Start To Question My Thinking... If I Really Chose The Right Path.. Not Believing U Know. Than I Hit A Hard Depression But Ppl Always Pull Me Back On My Feet And I Start Being A Wonderful Care Free Soul Again..., But The Depressions Eased Down Alot Which Means Everthing I Am Still Teaching Myself Is Good For Me. I Dont Know If I Would Recommend This Path For Anyone Tho. There Is A Bad Side..
U Start Seeing The World Different. Its Beautiful In Ur Eyes Yes, But... U Start Seeing Things Different From Everyone. Ur Type Of Pain Is Diff. From Everyone Else, Including The Way U See Things, The Way U Feel Them, Everything. U Feel Seperated From The World Like Ur Already Doomed. U Become A Bit More Self~less And Sometimes Forget About Urself Completly. All U Worry About Is Helping Others Outta Their Dilema. And U Dont Wanna Rest Till They Can At Peace. But There Are Like These Rules Tho. To Help, U Cant Bring Ur Belifes In OR Take Theirs Out. U Have To Understand The Way They Feel and Believe And Help Them Using That. If They Believe In God, Than U Let Them Know He Cares For Them Even Tho U Dont Really Believe. It Gets Kinda Hard But After A While U Get To Learn To Live With It.
I Dont Regret The Path I Chose Tho. Im Happy :)
Kinda Made My Own Religion After Hearing Different Ppl's Views I Guess. I Mean U Cant Start Something If U Dont Know Wat Ur Talking About. U Have To Understand Everyone Elses Point Of Veiw. U Cant Just Wake Up One Day And Say "I Dont Believe" And Not Have A reason. Its... Non-humane. U Have To Know Wat Ur Talking About And I Know Enough From Everything Else I Learned About Religion And Life To Know This Is Wat I Believe.
But Like I Said, I Really Dont Encourage Ppl To Try This Life... It Their Choice Tho. If U Do And Start Seeing This Way... I Dont Think Ull Be As Normal As U Once Were And I See No Way Outta It. I Feel Its Like Once U Choose This Life Ur Stuck Here. I Really Dont C How U Can Go Back To The Way U Were. But Its Not That Bad Either. I Perfer This Tho
ts Becuz I Started Believing This Way, I Continued My Poetry Really. At First It Was All My Hate Then I Wrote Just 4 Others Now Its Both I Write For. But I Have To Know Wat Im Talkin About B4 Writing 4 Someone Else Lol. Ya, But Thats Really My Belief. I Mean, Dont Get Me Wrong... Ive Takin My First Holy Communion And Im On My Last Year Of Confirmation With The Catholic Religion And All. But I Do It 4 2 Reasons.
One Is To Understand More Of Wat They Are Teaching Everyone. So I Can Come To Understand More Of Wat They Preach And How They Feel. Its Quite Intresting Really. I Mean, The More I Listened, The Less I Believed Which Was Funny Really. I Mean They Preach To U To Get U To Follow, Yet The More I Listend... I Pushed It Away. I Went From Circling My Life Around God And Being Closed Minded To Opening My Mind And Reading Inbetween The Lines. The More I Heard, The More I Saw Them Contradicting Themselves On So Many Levals. Its Really Entertaining To See Ppl Being Dragged Towards It. I Even Took Over Some Other Guys Assignment To Learn More. He Had To Do An Essay On Religion Vs. Evolution And I Did It To Learn Both Views. That Was The Most Entertaing Topic Ive Done
So Ya, Reason One For The Classes Was Learning. The Second Reason Was Just In Case I Married A Catholic Girl Who Wanted To Get Married In A Church, I Wouldent Be Holing Her Back Cuz I Already Took My Classes.
And Thats Where I Would Say My Beliefs Stop.... So Far I Guess..