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So, let's see today I have felt like a complete moron. Every time I opened my mouth today I either got made fun of, or I just felt like a complete idiot afterwards. I think I am thinking too much, and I just want to stop thinking into things and not worry about stuff. It was just at Nick's tonight every time I talked I felt like a loser. I think I send off this image that I am stupid, and sometimes I really live up to it. Because I really don't consider myself that dumb, and I think that I need to stop acting so immature and grow up. Sometimes I feel so much more immature than most people. The weirdest part about all of this is that lately I have felt really pretty. I just feel thin and I think that I look pretty. I look pretty decent in my clothes, and I just like wow I have grown up, and I look soo much better than I use to look. Maybe I put myself down too much, and don't give myself enough credit. I mean I am in college, that means I did something right. I feel pretty today, and I felt even better about myself yesterday. I actually appreciate myself now, it's amazing. It's probably because I am thin. But whatever it is I don't want it to stop, and I want to continue to feel good about myself. First time for everything in life I suppose.