Its 1:33 am
Central Time
I can not sleep.
I can not eat.
(due to the fact that i ate almost an entire box of Mac and Cheese today... so the thought of eating makes me cringe)
looking over paper work
work on paper - for school
paper on work previously done - for my taxes
paper on work i've done in years past - for new work i wish to do
"As a well spent day brings happy life, so life well used brings happy death"
- Leonardo Da Vinci
I did what I was so supposed to... but no. In my head... today was not well spent.
My life... no it has not been well used.
Though i've been told so many times that i'm not on the right path, I always felt that I was.
And now I know why... I'm on the path to a happy death.
I mean we are all going to die anyways... in my opinion, it's not too absurd to think that maybe the point of life is to die happy.
What is absurd is to think that one can be happy all the time.
Emotions can and will take over your better judgment at one point or another; even if its not for long.
And they will do so on many occasions; even and especially when its inappropriate.
deal with it.
with that said... i will pick up a book to read until i wake up cuddling with it in the morning.
oh btw. i miss you. even if you don't believe me. even if you won't admit it. you miss me too.
I can not sleep.
I can not eat.
(due to the fact that i ate almost an entire box of Mac and Cheese today... so the thought of eating makes me cringe)
looking over paper work
work on paper - for school
paper on work previously done - for my taxes
paper on work i've done in years past - for new work i wish to do
"As a well spent day brings happy life, so life well used brings happy death"
- Leonardo Da Vinci
I did what I was so supposed to... but no. In my head... today was not well spent.
My life... no it has not been well used.
Though i've been told so many times that i'm not on the right path, I always felt that I was.
And now I know why... I'm on the path to a happy death.
I mean we are all going to die anyways... in my opinion, it's not too absurd to think that maybe the point of life is to die happy.
What is absurd is to think that one can be happy all the time.
Emotions can and will take over your better judgment at one point or another; even if its not for long.
And they will do so on many occasions; even and especially when its inappropriate.
deal with it.
with that said... i will pick up a book to read until i wake up cuddling with it in the morning.
oh btw. i miss you. even if you don't believe me. even if you won't admit it. you miss me too.