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the situation was kind of ironic; the looks are annoying.
i will try to explain myself without getting too "emo"
life gets lonely when no one appears to be interested in your face (besides kerri, of course), and prospects of a date, kiss, or anything of the sort is futile.
but you truck through and continue to do your derivatives, because that's what is put in front of you, and if you do what you're told, they say rewards will come.
i love my friends (immensely) and i try my best not to take them for granted.
i have complained about being the third wheel twice (this is my second time).
listening to your problems, having empathy, giving advice, and being happy for you are all things that i would love to do, forever and ever, as long as i have control of my mind.
but (and there is always a but, or a butt if you're into it) i regreat doing one single thing for you when my favors are not reciprocated.
this is (honestly) not a big deal to me. just something that's been in my mind, and i want to mention.
i understand how annoying it is when someone is ecstatically happy while you're depressed.
but you have to understand that it is equally as annoying when someone is painfully depressed while you're happy.
so maybe it can be taken into consideration that me finding someone i enjoy and appreciate...is something good?
because when you're practically mad that i'm happy, you send a message that i don't deserve what i've found.
i will try to explain myself without getting too "emo"
life gets lonely when no one appears to be interested in your face (besides kerri, of course), and prospects of a date, kiss, or anything of the sort is futile.
but you truck through and continue to do your derivatives, because that's what is put in front of you, and if you do what you're told, they say rewards will come.
i love my friends (immensely) and i try my best not to take them for granted.
i have complained about being the third wheel twice (this is my second time).
listening to your problems, having empathy, giving advice, and being happy for you are all things that i would love to do, forever and ever, as long as i have control of my mind.
but (and there is always a but, or a butt if you're into it) i regreat doing one single thing for you when my favors are not reciprocated.
this is (honestly) not a big deal to me. just something that's been in my mind, and i want to mention.
i understand how annoying it is when someone is ecstatically happy while you're depressed.
but you have to understand that it is equally as annoying when someone is painfully depressed while you're happy.
so maybe it can be taken into consideration that me finding someone i enjoy and appreciate...is something good?
because when you're practically mad that i'm happy, you send a message that i don't deserve what i've found.