I hate "recovery"
I can't stand my body. I feel like I'm drowning in fat. I want to cut my thighs of, I want to cut my arms off. My stomach is flat now that I'm healthy, I don't get that bloated "starved" swollen problem. But the rest of me is out of control fat. It's making me feel crazy. I need the find a quiet place with in myself again and sit there and become Ok with who I have become. If I can't do that, then I have to stop eating again.