Anxiety
I woke up filled with anxiety today.
-I just finished my ED treatment of almost a year. I'm afraid of how I'll make it with out that support network.
-I just moved to a new town where I don't really know anyone.
-I just started a new job. Even though I'm the bosses pet (so I know my job is safe) I'm afraid people will hate me for getting to be the pet after only 2 weeks. I'm terrified of office politics, I'm never popular. I'm always the awkward one. And in offices filled with over weight women, I hear jealous snickers behind my back, or blatant remarks about my weight to my face. I ate a sticky bun yesterday and one co-worker said I just don't know how you eat stuff like that and stay so small! I could hear hate in her voice. I always go into a new job or school naively loving everyone; it always hurts so much when I come to the realization that I am not totally loved in return. Why are people so shallow and fake? What is so wrong with me that makes me so unlovable?
-I just finished my ED treatment of almost a year. I'm afraid of how I'll make it with out that support network.
-I just moved to a new town where I don't really know anyone.
-I just started a new job. Even though I'm the bosses pet (so I know my job is safe) I'm afraid people will hate me for getting to be the pet after only 2 weeks. I'm terrified of office politics, I'm never popular. I'm always the awkward one. And in offices filled with over weight women, I hear jealous snickers behind my back, or blatant remarks about my weight to my face. I ate a sticky bun yesterday and one co-worker said I just don't know how you eat stuff like that and stay so small! I could hear hate in her voice. I always go into a new job or school naively loving everyone; it always hurts so much when I come to the realization that I am not totally loved in return. Why are people so shallow and fake? What is so wrong with me that makes me so unlovable?