when all is well why cant we rest!
Wow! I havent updated in forever..right now i am incredibly bored and borderline ill ...Leslie is working right now and as a result im am super bored..speaking of Leslie...three words I LOVE HERRRRRR!!!...i could explain in greater detail but the bottom line is this is LJ and i dont feel the need to write my life story in here for everyone to see and pick apart..besides the only person who needs to know how i feel about her..is her herself...anywho...on a completely different note...change is scary but why?...it spices up life..it makes things not so monotnus(bad spelling!)...it makes you feel like you are moving towards something..and in no way am i disagreeing with any of the outcomes of change written above..but it still doesnt take away from the fact that change is scary..i guess you just go with it knowing that by the change you are pushing towards an ultimate outcome...my life is changing rapidly...of the most importance: a relationship with the most amazing person that i could have ever met that couldnt be going better...also a new job that i am now running the show sometimes from being managment..and of course the huge crossroad i am at with deciding a career along with the many responsibilities that are now starting to become apart of my lifestyle..i just feel like i am going to have a breakdown things are moving very fast and i keep having nightmares that life leaves me in the dust and i go back to high school years where i have nothing going for me again no relationship no job no life..im empty..its scary i dont want to lose anything that is new in my life...i dunno...its like when things are going so well im looking out for the opposite and equal negative reaction...Anyway for those who read this...sorry for taking you on this depressing ride...I just need to talk to my baby she always comforts me when i feel bad...she will be off work soon YAYAY!! anyway im going to leave now and go think about how incredible she is buh bye all! :)